When I think of you

When I think of you I feel a strange hurting.
Like I can't breathe, like my heart can't go on beating.
I lose all motivation, sense of purpose amd destination.
What should I do? Where am I going to?

My life hangs in the balance, dangles in the wind
It's a hopeless way to live, with someone who's not my friend.
I don't want to stay with you, but what else can I do?
Others depend on me, I have to wait it through.

There is no help. There is no hope.
Only memories like thunderclaps resounding in my head.
Pounding me to pieces, tearing me apart,
and always this dull, heavy aching in my heart.