If I had a million dollars
I would buy you happiness
wrapped in a sigh
and your loved one's caress
Just to see your face alight
with the smile I used to see
when you were young
and your heart was warm and free
Money can't buy happiness
money can't stop pain
But it could buy a roof
to protect you from the rain
I don't have a million dollars
just a memory
of one who was my neighbor
and priceless to me.
Friday, September 16, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
Meaningful time
What would it be like
to spend my time with someone
who knew our time would end
and wanted it to end as friends
What would it be like
to love someone so much
the world has no worth
if they return into the earth
what would it be like
to have all my dreams
tied up in the love
of one human being?
Is this what will happen
if I find someone I love
will I lose myself
lose sight of God above
And lose my soul to worship
of a mortal being
lose my meter and rhyme
in need for meaningful time. *
to spend my time with someone
who knew our time would end
and wanted it to end as friends
What would it be like
to love someone so much
the world has no worth
if they return into the earth
what would it be like
to have all my dreams
tied up in the love
of one human being?
Is this what will happen
if I find someone I love
will I lose myself
lose sight of God above
And lose my soul to worship
of a mortal being
lose my meter and rhyme
in need for meaningful time. *
Broken Hearts
Broken hearts are not instantaneous. They are made gradually and progressively over time. They are made of love and faith and dreams. They are made of caring and sharing and hope. They are made of expectations. They are made of commitment and respect. When these things are broken, these things a person values most, or those we set our heart on and build our lives around, we lose hope and we die.
I think the only one we should love like that is God because if we love Him we can never be hopeless. He does not die. He cannot be taken away from us. He is the only one who can return life to those we love, and thereby return hope to us.
There is no living human being who can offer or fulfill such a promise of hope. There is no hero who can fill our endless needs or reverse our destructive habits. There is no living person who can inspire or command in the manner God can. People with Godly attributes can persuade our minds and our hearts to adopt good traits and become better people though.
Life is a search and a learning experience. We are searching for perfection, beauty, balance, symmetry. We are looking for happiness. Most important, we are looking for happiness that never ends, because misery is unendurable. Broken hearts are unendurable. It seems impossible to go on after someone we love dies or is taken away from us.
If we believe in the spiritual things and believe those we love are still out there somewhere, loving us the way we love them, we can still have courage to go on and make them proud of us by doing the things they would have liked to see us do.
In fact, these days it is easier to believe that unseen people are out there watching what we do, because there are so many cameras always watching us. We do not know when we are going to be captured on video in unseemly and unflattering positions. Doesn't it make sense then, to try harder than ever to be good?
I have always believed if I could make a total commitment to God, everything would be okay and I would eventually find my way to happiness. Commitment itself is a progressive process. It's easy to make mistakes and lose the way.
Broken hearts come in varying degrees just like any other break. Some are little breaks like chips off an edge, almost imperceptible damage. Some are bad breaks but still reparable. The worst ones are life threatening or fatal. When someone dies of a broken heart, we know for sure that their hearts were committed completely.
I think Jesus died of a broken heart, and He loved so completely He could not live when God withdrew briefly and He was alone.
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I think the only one we should love like that is God because if we love Him we can never be hopeless. He does not die. He cannot be taken away from us. He is the only one who can return life to those we love, and thereby return hope to us.
There is no living human being who can offer or fulfill such a promise of hope. There is no hero who can fill our endless needs or reverse our destructive habits. There is no living person who can inspire or command in the manner God can. People with Godly attributes can persuade our minds and our hearts to adopt good traits and become better people though.
Life is a search and a learning experience. We are searching for perfection, beauty, balance, symmetry. We are looking for happiness. Most important, we are looking for happiness that never ends, because misery is unendurable. Broken hearts are unendurable. It seems impossible to go on after someone we love dies or is taken away from us.
If we believe in the spiritual things and believe those we love are still out there somewhere, loving us the way we love them, we can still have courage to go on and make them proud of us by doing the things they would have liked to see us do.
In fact, these days it is easier to believe that unseen people are out there watching what we do, because there are so many cameras always watching us. We do not know when we are going to be captured on video in unseemly and unflattering positions. Doesn't it make sense then, to try harder than ever to be good?
I have always believed if I could make a total commitment to God, everything would be okay and I would eventually find my way to happiness. Commitment itself is a progressive process. It's easy to make mistakes and lose the way.
Broken hearts come in varying degrees just like any other break. Some are little breaks like chips off an edge, almost imperceptible damage. Some are bad breaks but still reparable. The worst ones are life threatening or fatal. When someone dies of a broken heart, we know for sure that their hearts were committed completely.
I think Jesus died of a broken heart, and He loved so completely He could not live when God withdrew briefly and He was alone.
Surrogate
If I bore children who weren't mine
Could I bear to let them go?
Without hope of ever seeing the children again
Or being part of their lives?
Somehow it seems bizarre to me
receiving payment for giving life
To pass to another family
With no return of love in sight.
Is it progress to rely
On social technology?
Have we really forgotten
Who we are and who we used to be?
Can the new ways replace the old ways?
Should life be for sale?
If we accept the new ways
We must accept that as well.
Could I bear to let them go?
Without hope of ever seeing the children again
Or being part of their lives?
Somehow it seems bizarre to me
receiving payment for giving life
To pass to another family
With no return of love in sight.
Is it progress to rely
On social technology?
Have we really forgotten
Who we are and who we used to be?
Can the new ways replace the old ways?
Should life be for sale?
If we accept the new ways
We must accept that as well.
Sorting things
Today was a sorting day, for thoughts and things and memories. I bagged some household rubble and took it to the park with the kids to paw through and decide what to do with. The last six years have been 100% chaos with no letup. I don't like being dragged around by fate.
Somehow stuff has accumulated and life has become unmaintainable.
I don't want it that way, I don't like it that way, but it has grown that way in bits and pieces over time.
So, I don't want to own more than I can reasonably maintain. I am grateful to God for the things He didn't give me, that I could never reach. I think He knows what's best for me in the long run.
With all of the events and disasters happening, and people dying unexpectedly, I think the best way to live is as though we might breathe our last breath at any moment. From that perspective, I must let go all that is nonessential to day to day existence. If I were to cease living, thinking, breathing, what would I leave behind for the people whom I love?
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Somehow stuff has accumulated and life has become unmaintainable.
I don't want it that way, I don't like it that way, but it has grown that way in bits and pieces over time.
So, I don't want to own more than I can reasonably maintain. I am grateful to God for the things He didn't give me, that I could never reach. I think He knows what's best for me in the long run.
With all of the events and disasters happening, and people dying unexpectedly, I think the best way to live is as though we might breathe our last breath at any moment. From that perspective, I must let go all that is nonessential to day to day existence. If I were to cease living, thinking, breathing, what would I leave behind for the people whom I love?
Makers of illusions
We are makers of illusions
illusions fueled by dreams
no definition or conclusion
never what they seem
Warp the surface,
imply substance
that isn't really there
missing time and care...
Light that rules the night
can it bear close inspection?
in itself an illusion
It is but a reflection...
illusions fueled by dreams
no definition or conclusion
never what they seem
Warp the surface,
imply substance
that isn't really there
missing time and care...
Light that rules the night
can it bear close inspection?
in itself an illusion
It is but a reflection...
Laundry time
Last night I was at the laundromat and I saw one of those perfect couples I sometimes hear about but almost never see.
It was a young couple from Mexico with several small children. They were having a family night out washing all of the laundry in their home.While the laundry washed they talked back and forth, watched over their children, took turns holding the baby, taking the laundry to the dryer.
When the laundry was dry, they carefully folded it together, took turns taking the laundry and the kids to the car and waved to me as they drove away.
How I loved that family, and wished ours had been like that... *
It was a young couple from Mexico with several small children. They were having a family night out washing all of the laundry in their home.While the laundry washed they talked back and forth, watched over their children, took turns holding the baby, taking the laundry to the dryer.
When the laundry was dry, they carefully folded it together, took turns taking the laundry and the kids to the car and waved to me as they drove away.
How I loved that family, and wished ours had been like that... *
Monday, August 1, 2011
Come and play
Come and play where I play
walk with me where I go
share with me what I love
come and learn what I know
Come with me and see
my most favorite places
and see all the feelings
in my most favorite faces
Come see what I've seen
worlds of wonder I've trod
while seeking and finding
the pure love of God.
Squaw Peak Hike | Rock Canyon Provo, Utah
walk with me where I go
share with me what I love
come and learn what I know
Come with me and see
my most favorite places
and see all the feelings
in my most favorite faces
Come see what I've seen
worlds of wonder I've trod
while seeking and finding
the pure love of God.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Little angel blue eyes
Little angel blue eyes
looking up at me
Little angel blue eyes
what is it that you see?
Do you see a grownup
or another child
someone stern and grim or
someone sweet and mild?
Will you still love me
when you are grown
old enough to go away
and live out on your own
Little angel blue eyes
as long as I live and breathe
I will hold and love you
and try to fill your needs
looking up at me
Little angel blue eyes
what is it that you see?
Do you see a grownup
or another child
someone stern and grim or
someone sweet and mild?
Will you still love me
when you are grown
old enough to go away
and live out on your own
Little angel blue eyes
as long as I live and breathe
I will hold and love you
and try to fill your needs
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Lifelong love
Once this poster hung on the wall of two newlyweds, us, he and I. I hoped very much we could work on our feelings and turn them into strong permanent bonds to nourish and strengthen each other and our family.
If you are my lifelong love
I want to be with you
If I am who you love
you want to be with me too
So we won't go places
we know we shouldn't be
where we can't reach each other
or take our family.
Because if you really love
you commit entirely
If I love you
I'll completely commit me
and we will be as one
traveling in the same direction
toward the same destination
without reservation
Love that grows from you and me
will be a wondrous family.
People who love
and serve God above
We will find pleasure
in being together
sharing together
learning together
family forever.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Sister moonlight
Smile sister moonlight, let your midnight hair
sweep soft o'er the babe in your arms.
Soothe away tears, infantile nightmares,
cradle him, comfort him, keep him from harm.
Lullabye lady alone through dark hours
awaiting your eternal lover
who greets you at dawn as you cradle his son
inspiring you like no other.
Sometimes you're lonely, but lady don't fear.
Someone who loves you will always be near
even if only in spirit.
Smile sweet sister, shine on forever,
shadows eclipse not your light.
Your loved ones and you shall be happy together.
sun shall dispel the dark night
and time's end shall mark new beginnings
and future shall ever beam bright..
sweep soft o'er the babe in your arms.
Soothe away tears, infantile nightmares,
cradle him, comfort him, keep him from harm.
Lullabye lady alone through dark hours
awaiting your eternal lover
who greets you at dawn as you cradle his son
inspiring you like no other.
Sometimes you're lonely, but lady don't fear.
Someone who loves you will always be near
even if only in spirit.
Smile sweet sister, shine on forever,
shadows eclipse not your light.
Your loved ones and you shall be happy together.
sun shall dispel the dark night
and time's end shall mark new beginnings
and future shall ever beam bright..
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
If I could
If I could stand outside myself and turn and look at me
and see myself through others eyes, I wonder what I'd see?
If I could look beyond myself and see another's pain,
would I reach out my hand to them or turn and walk away?
If I could be more than I am that's what I want to be.
I'd be more loving, and good, and kind
more giving, more open of heart and mind
and look toward the future instead of behind.
If I could see more than i do, that's what I'd want to see.
I would see how to care for others' needs
see my mistakes in words and deeds,
know when to follow and when to lead.
If I could know more than I do, that's what I'd want to know.
I'd know for sure what I do is right
know how to answer my questions inside,
and always pursue eternity's light.
http://media.pearsoncmg.com/ph/esm/esm_tobey_tsbg2e_10/ebook/tsbg2e_flash_main.html?chapter=null&page=EM-1&anchory=null&pstart=null&pend=null
Math textbook. I'm still using it.
Night life
When shadows of night fall, hiding the day
shy creatures wake from sweet slumber to play.
Where colorful butterflies race in sunlight,
soft silver moths make their way in the night.
As sparrows and meadowlarks sing their last notes
crickets and frogs begin clearing their throats.
Little breezes ruffle fur of nocturnal beasts
blinking owls with shining eyes keep watch in the trees.
Hunters stalk their wary prey through the night hours
fireflies light the way for hungry night prowlers.
When the sun's bright fingers appear overhead
sleepy night creatures curl up in their beds
and slumber till warm daylight hours wane
then rise again to play their games..
shy creatures wake from sweet slumber to play.
Where colorful butterflies race in sunlight,
soft silver moths make their way in the night.
As sparrows and meadowlarks sing their last notes
crickets and frogs begin clearing their throats.
Little breezes ruffle fur of nocturnal beasts
blinking owls with shining eyes keep watch in the trees.
Hunters stalk their wary prey through the night hours
fireflies light the way for hungry night prowlers.
When the sun's bright fingers appear overhead
sleepy night creatures curl up in their beds
and slumber till warm daylight hours wane
then rise again to play their games..
For Aaron
Little brother when I held you and I bounced you in my arms
and saw you smile, heard you laugh, I felt happy and warm.
One of the best things in my life was learning to know you
from the first day of your life, and then all the way through
Little brother I can't say that I've led a perfect life
I can't say our relationship was free of pain and strife
And I'm so sorry for times I betrayed your trust in me
And never really told you just what you meant to me.
So now my brother you are grown and you have moved away
And when we meet face to face we don't know what to say
But I regret the past and I hope you'll forgive me
For my lack of understanding and insensitivity.
and saw you smile, heard you laugh, I felt happy and warm.
One of the best things in my life was learning to know you
from the first day of your life, and then all the way through
Little brother I can't say that I've led a perfect life
I can't say our relationship was free of pain and strife
And I'm so sorry for times I betrayed your trust in me
And never really told you just what you meant to me.
So now my brother you are grown and you have moved away
And when we meet face to face we don't know what to say
But I regret the past and I hope you'll forgive me
For my lack of understanding and insensitivity.
Keepers of light
You are keepers of light,
Reflecting glory in the dark fearsome night
Precious and sacred friends
Bridging a chasm of unknown depth without end.
I would not take your glory from you
or block you from my view
Your shine is soft and gentle
And comforts like a mantle
If I could I would return the good you’ve given me
Supporting me when I am weak and afraid
So much is beyond what I’m able to do
But the future is still unmade…
How I hope you will always be there
Shining light for everyone
Reflecting Heaven’s glory
Like the moon reflects the Sun.
Reflecting glory in the dark fearsome night
Precious and sacred friends
Bridging a chasm of unknown depth without end.
I would not take your glory from you
or block you from my view
Your shine is soft and gentle
And comforts like a mantle
If I could I would return the good you’ve given me
Supporting me when I am weak and afraid
So much is beyond what I’m able to do
But the future is still unmade…
How I hope you will always be there
Shining light for everyone
Reflecting Heaven’s glory
Like the moon reflects the Sun.
Mystery
Somewhere there is something
always sought for but unreached
visible as wind, audible as silence
tangible as thought...
Existing in tradition,
divined by intuition
uncapturable, but always there
Powerful, peaceful.
Mystery unanswered, yet
answered continuously.
Question self contained in the answer.
Always unseen.
always sought for but unreached
visible as wind, audible as silence
tangible as thought...
Existing in tradition,
divined by intuition
uncapturable, but always there
Powerful, peaceful.
Mystery unanswered, yet
answered continuously.
Question self contained in the answer.
Always unseen.
Battles
The greatest battle we fight in this life
is the fight against negatives.
Negativity can take over your life if you let it.
Don't lose the fight.
If you have to, cut yourself off
from everyone and everything that
feeds you those negatives.
Don't let it in. Don't let it win.
It is better to die in the light
than to live in the darkness.
is the fight against negatives.
Negativity can take over your life if you let it.
Don't lose the fight.
If you have to, cut yourself off
from everyone and everything that
feeds you those negatives.
Don't let it in. Don't let it win.
It is better to die in the light
than to live in the darkness.
Worth
There are some things not worth having.
Those things that are not worth having
will often seek you out and reach for you
to tear you down.
Be careful. Your soul is worth more
than you know.
The things you want most
are the most difficult to reach.
Sometimes it will seem to you as though
you cannot reach them at all.
There is only one who will love you
and hold you through all of it.
That one is God.
When all others have abandoned you
He is there for you.
When destroyers reach for you to pollute
and trap you, they are seen by the great Creator.
They cannot hide and they are designing their own destruction.
There are no places in His kingdom for those
who will tear down others.
May all people be shielded from the thoughts of
those who most wish to destroy them.
Those things that are not worth having
will often seek you out and reach for you
to tear you down.
Be careful. Your soul is worth more
than you know.
The things you want most
are the most difficult to reach.
Sometimes it will seem to you as though
you cannot reach them at all.
There is only one who will love you
and hold you through all of it.
That one is God.
When all others have abandoned you
He is there for you.
When destroyers reach for you to pollute
and trap you, they are seen by the great Creator.
They cannot hide and they are designing their own destruction.
There are no places in His kingdom for those
who will tear down others.
May all people be shielded from the thoughts of
those who most wish to destroy them.
Description of a feeling
Mind to mind, heart to heart,spirit to spirit.
Not invasive, but sharing.
Warm, sweet, peaceful and tender
adds to the quality of life
rather than being disruptive and painful.
Smooth, quiet, relaxing.
Undemanding, accepting,receptive,
respectful, understanding, humorous,
sometimes romantic.
Non-competitive, but motivated in other ways.
Violence and despair have no part in this.
Unhurried, limitless, eternal.
Calm, serene, ever changing
but always essentially familiar.
Surrounds and envelops without constricting,
secure, but never boring.
This cannot be bought, sold or stolen,
bottled, caged or broken.
It can't be forced but it can be killed,
for love is a living thing.
Not invasive, but sharing.
Warm, sweet, peaceful and tender
adds to the quality of life
rather than being disruptive and painful.
Smooth, quiet, relaxing.
Undemanding, accepting,receptive,
respectful, understanding, humorous,
sometimes romantic.
Non-competitive, but motivated in other ways.
Violence and despair have no part in this.
Unhurried, limitless, eternal.
Calm, serene, ever changing
but always essentially familiar.
Surrounds and envelops without constricting,
secure, but never boring.
This cannot be bought, sold or stolen,
bottled, caged or broken.
It can't be forced but it can be killed,
for love is a living thing.
Disabilities
Disabilities are part of life.
It is normal to have at least one.
Some disabilities aren't visible from the outside.
Disabilities don't make people worthless.
They do make a person feel worthless.
No one really wants to feel worthless.
No one wants to be worthless.
Build people up.
Help them to feeltheir worth.
Give them a place to live and grow.
The world is for everyone
not just those who have and who can.
All life is precious.
Don't waste life.
It is normal to have at least one.
Some disabilities aren't visible from the outside.
Disabilities don't make people worthless.
They do make a person feel worthless.
No one really wants to feel worthless.
No one wants to be worthless.
Build people up.
Help them to feeltheir worth.
Give them a place to live and grow.
The world is for everyone
not just those who have and who can.
All life is precious.
Don't waste life.
Bad Things Can Happen to Anyone
Bad things can happen to anyone
no matter who they are
like being struck by lightning
or crashing in a car
It isn't who you are
or anything you've done
Bad things in life just happen
to all and everyone.
Sometimes you meet those challenges
you wish never to face
You find yourself confronted
by a nightmare someplace
Living through it is the last thing
that you would want to do
It's a fate worse than death
and it's happening to you.
When you meet that nightmare,
no matter where or when.
That is your proving moment,
your key to understand.
It shows you what you're made of
where you are weak or strong.
It tells you where you're headed
and shows where you belong.
Bad things happen to anyone,
no matter who they are.
There's no safe place to hide
predict, prevent, or bar.
The only thing that you can do
is pray and prepare
And hold on tight to God
when you face your nightmares.
no matter who they are
like being struck by lightning
or crashing in a car
It isn't who you are
or anything you've done
Bad things in life just happen
to all and everyone.
Sometimes you meet those challenges
you wish never to face
You find yourself confronted
by a nightmare someplace
Living through it is the last thing
that you would want to do
It's a fate worse than death
and it's happening to you.
When you meet that nightmare,
no matter where or when.
That is your proving moment,
your key to understand.
It shows you what you're made of
where you are weak or strong.
It tells you where you're headed
and shows where you belong.
Bad things happen to anyone,
no matter who they are.
There's no safe place to hide
predict, prevent, or bar.
The only thing that you can do
is pray and prepare
And hold on tight to God
when you face your nightmares.
Saturday, July 16, 2011
The Soul
Once there was a girl
who dreamed of being free.
She didn't want to stay home
and raise a family
But she met a man
who used her for fun
and now she has a family
she's raising all alone.
Once there was a boy
who valued human souls
He tried to help his friends
reassess their goals
They pursued their own ideas
of fun and recreation
casually broke the laws
and wrecked his reputation.
In the end freedom isn't
doing what you want to do
It's what is best for everyone
not just what's fun for you.
It's nice when you can leave
all your cares behind
but when pursuing dreams
keep the soul's best use in mind.
Legacy
Do you ever wonder in the wanderings of your mind
where you fit in history and what you'll leave behind?
Do you search for meaning, for a reason to be?
Do you try each day to build a worthwhile legacy?
So many people aimlessly hope for things to do
There are multiple distractions, many roads to choose.
Looking for a purpose, lonely for a friend.
Hoping somehow it will all turn out right in the end...
Make every day worth living, look farther down your road,
Form a picture in your mind of the place you want to go
Plan, hope, and pray, reach for spirit goals
and recognize the worth in every living soul.
where you fit in history and what you'll leave behind?
Do you search for meaning, for a reason to be?
Do you try each day to build a worthwhile legacy?
So many people aimlessly hope for things to do
There are multiple distractions, many roads to choose.
Looking for a purpose, lonely for a friend.
Hoping somehow it will all turn out right in the end...
Make every day worth living, look farther down your road,
Form a picture in your mind of the place you want to go
Plan, hope, and pray, reach for spirit goals
and recognize the worth in every living soul.
Life work
I am alive because God made me so
and preserves me and keeps me from harm
My life's not my own and never was.
I drift like a leaf in a storm.
Where the wind takes me is where I must go
unknowing of time or direction
and praying and hoping for mercy from God
and coveting His protection.
Seasons pass, children grow,
My life's work, the seeds I sow
seeking better things to know
planning for tomorrow...
And bitter tears and yesterdays
time will somehow soothe away
and make my aging years taste sweet
make my life a work complete.
and preserves me and keeps me from harm
My life's not my own and never was.
I drift like a leaf in a storm.
Where the wind takes me is where I must go
unknowing of time or direction
and praying and hoping for mercy from God
and coveting His protection.
Seasons pass, children grow,
My life's work, the seeds I sow
seeking better things to know
planning for tomorrow...
And bitter tears and yesterdays
time will somehow soothe away
and make my aging years taste sweet
make my life a work complete.
White
White is the blessed light of sun
giving warmth to everyone.
White is smooth and shining spheres
of jewels born of oyster tears.
White is a pillow softer than soft
that bears my fondest dreams aloft.
White is the crown that I will wear
when age and experience color my hair.
White is the moon and glimmering stars,
the curling strands of morning mist
the wings of a swan in flight
the curled up fingers of a baby's fist.
White is a rose spangled with dew
a tiny cloud in a sky of blue
the sweetest fruit of the tree of life
and our dear Lord who stands for truth and right.
giving warmth to everyone.
White is smooth and shining spheres
of jewels born of oyster tears.
White is a pillow softer than soft
that bears my fondest dreams aloft.
White is the crown that I will wear
when age and experience color my hair.
White is the moon and glimmering stars,
the curling strands of morning mist
the wings of a swan in flight
the curled up fingers of a baby's fist.
White is a rose spangled with dew
a tiny cloud in a sky of blue
the sweetest fruit of the tree of life
and our dear Lord who stands for truth and right.
Dad
I will always love my father
not for all the things he's done
but because he's tried so hard
to make life better for everyone
Many times he's tried and failed
and fallen so far down
it seemed as if he'd never
get back up from off the ground
But he keeps on and he tries
and he dreams of something more.
better than anything
he's ever been before.
And he tries not to mind
the trouble left behind
and he tries not to make
his decisions blind...
But he makes his choices
based on his love.
And that is my father
and what he's made of...
not for all the things he's done
but because he's tried so hard
to make life better for everyone
Many times he's tried and failed
and fallen so far down
it seemed as if he'd never
get back up from off the ground
But he keeps on and he tries
and he dreams of something more.
better than anything
he's ever been before.
And he tries not to mind
the trouble left behind
and he tries not to make
his decisions blind...
But he makes his choices
based on his love.
And that is my father
and what he's made of...
Joseph
Joseph, you never grew old.
You passed from this life in your glorious prime
a martyr to the work of your life,
a landmark in the wilderness of time...
Your life's work the reason
for your existence
and still your enemies
renew their resistance...
But with God's love the treasure to win,
His world, His way, will be the best end
and your efforts were not in vain.
And Joseph, you'll live again.
You passed from this life in your glorious prime
a martyr to the work of your life,
a landmark in the wilderness of time...
Your life's work the reason
for your existence
and still your enemies
renew their resistance...
But with God's love the treasure to win,
His world, His way, will be the best end
and your efforts were not in vain.
And Joseph, you'll live again.
Heidi
When you were born your smile was the light
that brought the love of Heaven to your parents lives
And angels were your friends
they flowed from your pen
and warmed the changing seasons of your life.
Smile Heidi, smile and smile again
You've made the world a sweeter place for your family and friends.
Know that you are loved
here on earth and up above.
And may the Lord his greatest blessings send.
In the evening skies the stars join their shimmering light
to fend off the darkness of approaching night
and you shine like the brightest star
the spiritual being that you are
has given those around you better sight.
Live Heidi, live to see your children grow.
They will become great men and women I know
for having such a giving
and tender mother living
to teach them how to make good tomorrows.
And the Lord smiles on high
when he sees how you try
Your life is worth the while
Shine Heidi, live Heidi, and smile.
that brought the love of Heaven to your parents lives
And angels were your friends
they flowed from your pen
and warmed the changing seasons of your life.
Smile Heidi, smile and smile again
You've made the world a sweeter place for your family and friends.
Know that you are loved
here on earth and up above.
And may the Lord his greatest blessings send.
In the evening skies the stars join their shimmering light
to fend off the darkness of approaching night
and you shine like the brightest star
the spiritual being that you are
has given those around you better sight.
Live Heidi, live to see your children grow.
They will become great men and women I know
for having such a giving
and tender mother living
to teach them how to make good tomorrows.
And the Lord smiles on high
when he sees how you try
Your life is worth the while
Shine Heidi, live Heidi, and smile.
Fireflies
Our youngest glow brightest,that is why
People are like fireflies.
Youth's vigor is wasted on foolish forays,
and brilliant but vain displays.
Our fragile light lasts so little time
before life is over and undermined.
I wish to be a wise firefly
use my light to help those behind
If I share what light is mine
help others to see,light may come to me
and a better world I'll find.
People are like fireflies.
Youth's vigor is wasted on foolish forays,
and brilliant but vain displays.
Our fragile light lasts so little time
before life is over and undermined.
I wish to be a wise firefly
use my light to help those behind
If I share what light is mine
help others to see,light may come to me
and a better world I'll find.
My List
I want my hands to be useful hands
not hanging by my sides.
I want my actions driven by compassion
not vanity and pride
I want to be ready to die,
for death could come at any time.
Preparing for death brings
freedom, and peace of mind
What I want most in life is meaning
reason for existence
To do something worthwhile
I want life to make sense
And death to be as gentle as
the cooing of a dove
And leave behind an everlasting
legacy of love.
not hanging by my sides.
I want my actions driven by compassion
not vanity and pride
I want to be ready to die,
for death could come at any time.
Preparing for death brings
freedom, and peace of mind
What I want most in life is meaning
reason for existence
To do something worthwhile
I want life to make sense
And death to be as gentle as
the cooing of a dove
And leave behind an everlasting
legacy of love.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Someday
Someday never comes its just something to wish for
while the good things in life pass by
Someday is a dream that can never be reached
and hope is a well going dry
To whom God gives dreams to change the world
is given a way to achieve
And the hopes of the rest are pipe dreams at best
for those who still see and believe
Someday belongs in the world of dreams
and not to the commonplace world of beings
mainly concerned with their daily meals
unconcerned with how others feel
Someday is more than what concerns one
someday is what the world may become
Someday is more than one person can reach
but someday is the dreamer's release.
The one who does the choosing
Baby girl by the ocean shore
with the wonder in your eyes
and the innocence of new explorations
Will I find you anymore
as the wonder is replaced
by the years of struggling destinations
Why can't I protect you
from the hard things of life?
From despair and worry and hunger
from sorrow, pain and strife.
My love is not enough
to shelter you from pain
I can't hide from it myself
I can't stop the rain...
And maybe what I want for you
is really not what's best for you
because in the end I'm not
the one who does the choosing...
with the wonder in your eyes
and the innocence of new explorations
Will I find you anymore
as the wonder is replaced
by the years of struggling destinations
Why can't I protect you
from the hard things of life?
From despair and worry and hunger
from sorrow, pain and strife.
My love is not enough
to shelter you from pain
I can't hide from it myself
I can't stop the rain...
And maybe what I want for you
is really not what's best for you
because in the end I'm not
the one who does the choosing...
Field of flowers
I will lie in a field of flowers
and I will fall asleep
And the healing wind will touch me
I will no longer weep
The things I've been afraid of
will no longer trouble me
And the blue sky and the flowers
are the last things I will see.
Within that field of flowers is
the answer to my dreams
The peace I have been waiting for
the end of my being
I'll breathe one final perfumed breath
release my soul from pain,
And leave behind the grieving
I will never feel again.
I will rest like I've never rested,
sleep like I've never slept
Nevermore betrayed
Secrets all are kept
And deep within my slumber
the answers I've sought
are found in the merciful
arms of God
and I will fall asleep
And the healing wind will touch me
I will no longer weep
The things I've been afraid of
will no longer trouble me
And the blue sky and the flowers
are the last things I will see.
Within that field of flowers is
the answer to my dreams
The peace I have been waiting for
the end of my being
I'll breathe one final perfumed breath
release my soul from pain,
And leave behind the grieving
I will never feel again.
I will rest like I've never rested,
sleep like I've never slept
Nevermore betrayed
Secrets all are kept
And deep within my slumber
the answers I've sought
are found in the merciful
arms of God
Capsule
Strong thick walls untouched, unseen
built of ifs, maybes and might have beens
Encapsulated space within
knows no light, no welcome friend
fear, pain and envy encircle around
excluding faith and happiness found...
And in this ever shadowed room
the heart unnourished fails to bloom
deprived of light it withers and dies
unknown, unmourned in alibis.
built of ifs, maybes and might have beens
Encapsulated space within
knows no light, no welcome friend
fear, pain and envy encircle around
excluding faith and happiness found...
And in this ever shadowed room
the heart unnourished fails to bloom
deprived of light it withers and dies
unknown, unmourned in alibis.
Qualifications
by Rl Tracy on Saturday, January 1, 2011 at 9:34am
It can’t be just a pretty face or unblemished skin
or eloquent words or the cut and style of clothing
Those things I appreciate they are ornaments of you
but they can’t be the sole reasons for love that is true
All people have desires based on common needs
to eat, sleep, breathe,to love, trust, and believe
These needs bind people together or tear them apart
They motivate the spirit and activate the heart
Love can’t be unconditional based on conditions
exceptions must exist to mediate convictions
For love to live and grow, intolerance must die
end the unremitting horrors of social suicide.
or eloquent words or the cut and style of clothing
Those things I appreciate they are ornaments of you
but they can’t be the sole reasons for love that is true
All people have desires based on common needs
to eat, sleep, breathe,to love, trust, and believe
These needs bind people together or tear them apart
They motivate the spirit and activate the heart
Love can’t be unconditional based on conditions
exceptions must exist to mediate convictions
For love to live and grow, intolerance must die
end the unremitting horrors of social suicide.
Watching
Somewhere in the misty darkness
I can feel the spookiness
of watching eyes, watching eyes
watching progress or demise.
Through the world I walk
through the internet I talk
and silent watchers watch and watch
seemingly silent but really not
For I must pay the player of pipes
the time is coming and almost ripe
when those who wield the sharpest might
will reach to wound and end the fight
In this world wars waged with images
are bound to bring more damages
than all weapons invented in the past
the sword of the mind victorious at last...
The net to bind all living souls
has reached a state of mass control
in life and love the masses know
their every friend and every foe
So in the final compromise
webs woven of laws and lies
uphold all the sin and shame
for which one perfect bears the blame
And somewhere in the misty darkness
I can feel the spookiness
of watching eyes, staring eyes
watching progress or demise.
I can feel the spookiness
of watching eyes, watching eyes
watching progress or demise.
Through the world I walk
through the internet I talk
and silent watchers watch and watch
seemingly silent but really not
For I must pay the player of pipes
the time is coming and almost ripe
when those who wield the sharpest might
will reach to wound and end the fight
In this world wars waged with images
are bound to bring more damages
than all weapons invented in the past
the sword of the mind victorious at last...
The net to bind all living souls
has reached a state of mass control
in life and love the masses know
their every friend and every foe
So in the final compromise
webs woven of laws and lies
uphold all the sin and shame
for which one perfect bears the blame
And somewhere in the misty darkness
I can feel the spookiness
of watching eyes, staring eyes
watching progress or demise.
Barriers
by Rl Tracy on Thursday, May 6, 2010 at 7:03amThere are places we can’t go
and people we can’t know
Barriers we can’t cross
and so many hopes we’ve lost
But there are places we love
and a smile from God above
And the things that take us there
are the memories we share
Someday we’ll be fragile
and too infirm to travel
much further than our beds
we’ll go places in our heads
until there we must stay
as memories fade
But there are places we love
and a smile from God above
And we can still be there
with the memories we share
Hypnotized
We are all caught in
an electron stream
where ambivalent eyes
do the listening
No one cares if you cry
and no one cares if you scream
because we're all living in
a virtual dream
With no concept of time
we empty our minds
Into bits, into bytes
expressed in pixelated lights
As the earth groans and dies
and emits her last sighs
there'll be no time for goodbyes
For we are all hypnotized...
an electron stream
where ambivalent eyes
do the listening
No one cares if you cry
and no one cares if you scream
because we're all living in
a virtual dream
With no concept of time
we empty our minds
Into bits, into bytes
expressed in pixelated lights
As the earth groans and dies
and emits her last sighs
there'll be no time for goodbyes
For we are all hypnotized...
Virtual Reality
Some of our problems in reality are caused by
living in a virtual world of controlled experiences.
Experience is the best teacher, but it is difficult
to manage more than one reality at once.
Which one is most likely to replace the other?
Without direct experience do we lose the
ability to respond appropriately to the various
situations we face in life?
Are we exchanging what's real and right for a counterfeit
that brings no lasting satisfaction?
living in a virtual world of controlled experiences.
Experience is the best teacher, but it is difficult
to manage more than one reality at once.
Which one is most likely to replace the other?
Without direct experience do we lose the
ability to respond appropriately to the various
situations we face in life?
Are we exchanging what's real and right for a counterfeit
that brings no lasting satisfaction?
Online
Online I am weightless
timeless and fateless
Made of pictures and text
to accept or reject
In the world's largest court
our lives on display
leave no room for doubt
no mercy, no getaway
A grand display of larceny
fault without blame
a voyeurist society
with sins without shame
there but for
the grace of God go I
to a place I am all spirit
and my sins never die
Endure endless replications
of my life's complications
commercialized hope
and socialization
Are you there?
Somehow by any other name
I know it's you
your spirit is the same
we connect as separate souls
share similar goals
but if you could see
would you still know its me?
there but for
the grace of God go I
to a place I am all spirit
and my sins never die.
timeless and fateless
Made of pictures and text
to accept or reject
In the world's largest court
our lives on display
leave no room for doubt
no mercy, no getaway
A grand display of larceny
fault without blame
a voyeurist society
with sins without shame
there but for
the grace of God go I
to a place I am all spirit
and my sins never die
Endure endless replications
of my life's complications
commercialized hope
and socialization
Are you there?
Somehow by any other name
I know it's you
your spirit is the same
we connect as separate souls
share similar goals
but if you could see
would you still know its me?
there but for
the grace of God go I
to a place I am all spirit
and my sins never die.
Hold onto your faith
I see underwater your angel face
your open eyes, your struggle to breathe
Reaching upward for air and light
But you cannot win this fight
I'm screaming and running without really knowing
how I can reach you I just am going
no time to hope only time to act
I have to bring you back
Back to the light, back to the life
memories we make, you and I
My dear one, my dear one my love do not cry
Hold onto your faith, deliverance is nigh.
I launch my body through space undefined,
O God, my God, will I reach him in time?
before the bubble that holds your last breath
bursts on the surface to signal your death.
Then I'm in the water and you're in my arms
You're coughing and choking, but you are unharmed
Thank God for His goodness for giving me wings
for a moment to save you my precious darling.
You're back in the light, back to the life
back to memories we make, you and I
My dear one, my dear one my love do not cry
Hold onto your faith, God has saved you and I.
your open eyes, your struggle to breathe
Reaching upward for air and light
But you cannot win this fight
I'm screaming and running without really knowing
how I can reach you I just am going
no time to hope only time to act
I have to bring you back
Back to the light, back to the life
memories we make, you and I
My dear one, my dear one my love do not cry
Hold onto your faith, deliverance is nigh.
I launch my body through space undefined,
O God, my God, will I reach him in time?
before the bubble that holds your last breath
bursts on the surface to signal your death.
Then I'm in the water and you're in my arms
You're coughing and choking, but you are unharmed
Thank God for His goodness for giving me wings
for a moment to save you my precious darling.
You're back in the light, back to the life
back to memories we make, you and I
My dear one, my dear one my love do not cry
Hold onto your faith, God has saved you and I.
Adem
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In de hemel en op de aarde
Klinkt de liefde van zijn stem
Al wat leeft en wat adem heeft
Zingt alleen van hem
Zing je lied en hij zal je horen
In een tempel of in een stal
Of je hier bent of daar
Het geeft niet waar
Hij is overal
In heaven and on earth
Does the love of his voice
Everything that lives and has breath
Sing to him only
Sing your song and he will hear
In a temple or in a stable
Whether you're here or there
It does not matter where
He is everywhere ...
(Translation by Google Translate)
Prodigal
Thou art ever with me
all I have is thine
We have lived thus always
with lives intertwined
We were lost in hopelessness
in despair we were cast down
but now hope lives again for us
for what was lost is found
Thy brother dead, now lives
make merry and be glad
forget now and forgive
Thank God for what we have...
For in mercy God designed
what's best for I and thee
and joined in heart and mind
our broken family.
Back to Him
Who defines the songs we listen to?
And who designs experience we all are going through?
There's only one God in the Heavens high above
only One Creator who showers down His love
We can't even imagine what we were meant to do
but with His love to see us through
we can be so much more than we are
we can reach for and be like the stars
We can help each other grow and see
we are all part of His work and His glory
In the purest blue of the sky
we see but a hint of the light in His eye
and we can't see ourselves His way
but we have His words to show us the way
Back to Him, back to Him
we can see Him again
The source of more love than
we can ever imagine
To the light of our souls
our hearts to console
To the light that never grows dim
Back to Him...
And who designs experience we all are going through?
There's only one God in the Heavens high above
only One Creator who showers down His love
We can't even imagine what we were meant to do
but with His love to see us through
we can be so much more than we are
we can reach for and be like the stars
We can help each other grow and see
we are all part of His work and His glory
In the purest blue of the sky
we see but a hint of the light in His eye
and we can't see ourselves His way
but we have His words to show us the way
Back to Him, back to Him
we can see Him again
The source of more love than
we can ever imagine
To the light of our souls
our hearts to console
To the light that never grows dim
Back to Him...
Dying prayer
Lord, I commend my spirit unto Thee
Please watch over my dear children
Help them find a home and family
Let Thy Spirit be always with them.
Please ease their tears and their
cries in the night
When they are missing me
longing for light
lift their souls on the wind up high
let them see all the love in Thine eye
I won't be with them in eternity
but help them to still see
That Thy love is in the raindrops
that quench the thirsty ground
and Thy love is in the sunlight
that warms the world around
and Thy love is in the very air
all living creatures breathe
And Thy love is there for all of us
who reach and believe...
So Lord, I commend my spirit unto Thee
and ask Thy mercy for my family
Let their souls be in Thy hands
help them learn and understand
That love does not end when the body dies
Let them find their love in Thine eye
I won't be with them in eternity.
But help them still to see...
Room full of angels
When in your life comes a shortage of miracles
and darkness is closing around
and no one is there to remind you
where the way to Heaven is found
When you're lost in despair
and sorrow is there
haunting your every move
Let's paint you a room full of angels
on the blank walls all around you.
Paint you a room full of angels
to watch over you while you sleep
to ward off the fear and the shadows
and the worries that crawl and creep
Let thoughts of your loved ones flow round you
restful visions calm and serene
Paint you a room full of angels
to keep safe your hopes and dreams.
Scattered memories
When you leave your memories
all scattered out behind
When you are missing them
and they are hard to find
Sometimes when you are feeling
disconnected and blind
Memories may return to you
from someone else's mind.
Moths
Tiny golden friends
collect on my computer screen
watching where I go
sharing where I've been
fluttering on occasion
translucent wings
almost obscuring
my wanderings
Whither I go
whatever I do
My little friends watch
and they're with me too...
In God's eyes the goals
of their miniscule souls
are as great as mine
and our lives intertwine
though I'll never know
how they relate
how they share in
my life and my fate.
collect on my computer screen
watching where I go
sharing where I've been
fluttering on occasion
translucent wings
almost obscuring
my wanderings
Whither I go
whatever I do
My little friends watch
and they're with me too...
In God's eyes the goals
of their miniscule souls
are as great as mine
and our lives intertwine
though I'll never know
how they relate
how they share in
my life and my fate.
Mother's prayer
Please God send my children to places they are welcome
where they are loved and cared for, and they return in kind
Please God help my children grow in care and understanding
and help them know the value of love and peace of mind
Please God help them to deny the traps of vanity and pride
help them know that every soul has worth in Your eyes
Please God find a place for them with understanding friends
help them to learn to be dignified and wise...
Though I'm not the perfect mother, I wish I could have been
and I want release from the habits that don't end
Please God help me find a way to show them what they need
To find somehow, somewhere, a good life for them...
Please God help my children grow in care and understanding
and help them know the value of love and peace of mind
Please God help them to deny the traps of vanity and pride
help them know that every soul has worth in Your eyes
Please God find a place for them with understanding friends
help them to learn to be dignified and wise...
Though I'm not the perfect mother, I wish I could have been
and I want release from the habits that don't end
Please God help me find a way to show them what they need
To find somehow, somewhere, a good life for them...
The Moon
The Moon lights up the darkened sky
o'ercomes the fear of night
gives the world Celestial dreams
reflecting Heaven's light.
o'ercomes the fear of night
gives the world Celestial dreams
reflecting Heaven's light.
Eyes
The eyes are the windows to the soul.
The spirit the light of the body.
As a man thinketh, so is he
Actions from thoughts proceed
Bad thoughts motivate bad
Good thoughts motivate good
intrusions allay false illusions
Is it right to intrude?
Good things come to those who wait
time changes life and love.
People make mistakes.
Judge not lest ye be judged.
The spirit the light of the body.
As a man thinketh, so is he
Actions from thoughts proceed
Bad thoughts motivate bad
Good thoughts motivate good
intrusions allay false illusions
Is it right to intrude?
Good things come to those who wait
time changes life and love.
People make mistakes.
Judge not lest ye be judged.
Starfish (adaptation of Loren Eisely 's Star Thrower)
A heavy hearted man walked along the beach
his mind bound up in sorrows for things he couldn't reach,
and as he walked he saw a man
pick up something that lay on the sand
and throw it into the water...
"Man, what are you doing " he said
"I'm saving the starfish from dying."
The man looked down the beach for miles
where he knew thousands more were lying.
He said, "You must be crazy.
Your effort's a waste,a big mistake.
So many starfish are dying out here
what difference can you make?"
The man looked at him and smiled
picked up a starfish and threw.
the man saw it arc and splash
as into the rolling waves it flew
the man then said with sparkling eyes
"I made a difference to that one, didn't I?"
his mind bound up in sorrows for things he couldn't reach,
and as he walked he saw a man
pick up something that lay on the sand
and throw it into the water...
"Man, what are you doing " he said
"I'm saving the starfish from dying."
The man looked down the beach for miles
where he knew thousands more were lying.
He said, "You must be crazy.
Your effort's a waste,a big mistake.
So many starfish are dying out here
what difference can you make?"
The man looked at him and smiled
picked up a starfish and threw.
the man saw it arc and splash
as into the rolling waves it flew
the man then said with sparkling eyes
"I made a difference to that one, didn't I?"
Just Me
If I were important instead of who I am.
I think I would act different than I do.
I'd probably be more vain and proud
and have a different point of view.
If I were rich I'd be full of plans
That might conflict with the Lord's
But I would carry out my plans
and just ignore his words.
If I were famous I'd feel unique
always be craving more glory.
never connect with less well known people
all wrapped up in my own story.
If the whole world of people held their breath
waiting for me to make a choice
most likely they would regret
allowing me to air my voice.
Most likely I would be WRONG!!!
So I know the place God made for me
is just where and what I should be.
How odd it would feel to be important
instead of just me.
I think I would act different than I do.
I'd probably be more vain and proud
and have a different point of view.
If I were rich I'd be full of plans
That might conflict with the Lord's
But I would carry out my plans
and just ignore his words.
If I were famous I'd feel unique
always be craving more glory.
never connect with less well known people
all wrapped up in my own story.
If the whole world of people held their breath
waiting for me to make a choice
most likely they would regret
allowing me to air my voice.
Most likely I would be WRONG!!!
So I know the place God made for me
is just where and what I should be.
How odd it would feel to be important
instead of just me.
Family
A family is someone you love,
someone who also loves you.
People who think you are special
whom you feel are special too.
Family is someone to whom you belong,
someone who listens and cares
someone to tell all your worries and hopes to
who sacrifices and shares.
Family's someone who'll defend you
in times of trial and strife.
Someone who befriends and helps you
throughout all of your life.
someone who also loves you.
People who think you are special
whom you feel are special too.
Family is someone to whom you belong,
someone who listens and cares
someone to tell all your worries and hopes to
who sacrifices and shares.
Family's someone who'll defend you
in times of trial and strife.
Someone who befriends and helps you
throughout all of your life.
A little at a time
I've spent my life believing things others thought of me
Even if they weren't true, so many came to be.
But I can't lose by trying even if I don't place.
I'll never know what I can do unless I run the race.
A little at a time, a little at a time.
With patience there's no mountain too high for me to climb.
No obstacle can stop me as long as I keep trying.
I can make it if I take it a little at a time.
I've walked a thousand byways, run a thousand miles
told a thousand stories, smiled a thousand smiles.
But I didn't do it all at once, I couldn't if I tried
all that I've achieved I did a little at a time.
A little at a time, a little at a time.
Improvements need attention, steady hands, a clear mind.
Brick upon brick and line upon line.
I can change if I rearrange a little at a time.
When crises catch me unawares and leave me in a spin
recovery depends on how prepared I am
If I have planned ahead I won't come all unglued.
Just be aware and get prepared and I'll know what to do.
A little at a time, a little at a time.
Anytime's a good time to prepare my heart and mind
for the future I must face as my life story unwinds.
I'll get through it if I do it a little at a time.
Even if they weren't true, so many came to be.
But I can't lose by trying even if I don't place.
I'll never know what I can do unless I run the race.
A little at a time, a little at a time.
With patience there's no mountain too high for me to climb.
No obstacle can stop me as long as I keep trying.
I can make it if I take it a little at a time.
I've walked a thousand byways, run a thousand miles
told a thousand stories, smiled a thousand smiles.
But I didn't do it all at once, I couldn't if I tried
all that I've achieved I did a little at a time.
A little at a time, a little at a time.
Improvements need attention, steady hands, a clear mind.
Brick upon brick and line upon line.
I can change if I rearrange a little at a time.
When crises catch me unawares and leave me in a spin
recovery depends on how prepared I am
If I have planned ahead I won't come all unglued.
Just be aware and get prepared and I'll know what to do.
A little at a time, a little at a time.
Anytime's a good time to prepare my heart and mind
for the future I must face as my life story unwinds.
I'll get through it if I do it a little at a time.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Love is...
Love is a man thoughtful,kind
with care for others in his mind
in bright soft shades,varied hues
whirling in his eyes so true...
Love's a father new and tender
Making moments to remember
holding his children with gentle hands
helping to grow and understand
Love is a place secure and warm
wrapped in understanding arms,
Shared moments, dreams, and memories
Heaven's treasures are made of these
Love is a dance and a life together
feelings that grow and live forever
untouched by wrinkles or rashness of youth
Revealing, defining life's meaning and truths.
with care for others in his mind
in bright soft shades,varied hues
whirling in his eyes so true...
Love's a father new and tender
Making moments to remember
holding his children with gentle hands
helping to grow and understand
Love is a place secure and warm
wrapped in understanding arms,
Shared moments, dreams, and memories
Heaven's treasures are made of these
Love is a dance and a life together
feelings that grow and live forever
untouched by wrinkles or rashness of youth
Revealing, defining life's meaning and truths.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Place of my own
I dream of a place of my own
where the hurting in life is virtually unknown
a porch for summer evenings,a fire for the cold
Good man to walk through life with,hold hands when we're old.
I dream of places to be at rest
where I dare to think and decide what's best
Where no one ridicules, or makes me ill at ease
I can sing,dance,feel,stretch,grow and breathe
I long for a place to lay my head
a home fragrant,pleasant, a well made bed.
Treasures made by little hands
and the feeling God loves me and understands.
where the hurting in life is virtually unknown
a porch for summer evenings,a fire for the cold
Good man to walk through life with,hold hands when we're old.
I dream of places to be at rest
where I dare to think and decide what's best
Where no one ridicules, or makes me ill at ease
I can sing,dance,feel,stretch,grow and breathe
I long for a place to lay my head
a home fragrant,pleasant, a well made bed.
Treasures made by little hands
and the feeling God loves me and understands.
Goodnight
Sweet are the sounds of the water lapping softly,
liquid pleasure, shining treasure
soothe my spirit, soothe my mind...
cool and freshen, smoothe reflection
waves in rhythm intertwine...
remind me of love, and loving loved ones,
remind me of oh so sweet serenity
remind me not of the rough beneath the surface
not of the tears or fears or cruelty...
And here I am breathing the freshness
rising from the surface like a mist,
to revive me and recreate me
like the comfort in my loved one's kiss...
Raise my arms to feel the sunbeams,
cast my body into the breeze
and my body is so thin and light
I rise above the trees...
And awake as darkness finds me,
as silver stars swim in pools of moonlight.
And I smile as I leave and whisper softly,
goodnight my love, goodnight
I long for a place to lay my head
a home fragrant,pleasant, a well made bed.
Treasures made by little hands
and the feeling God loves me and understands.
liquid pleasure, shining treasure
soothe my spirit, soothe my mind...
cool and freshen, smoothe reflection
waves in rhythm intertwine...
remind me of love, and loving loved ones,
remind me of oh so sweet serenity
remind me not of the rough beneath the surface
not of the tears or fears or cruelty...
And here I am breathing the freshness
rising from the surface like a mist,
to revive me and recreate me
like the comfort in my loved one's kiss...
Raise my arms to feel the sunbeams,
cast my body into the breeze
and my body is so thin and light
I rise above the trees...
And awake as darkness finds me,
as silver stars swim in pools of moonlight.
And I smile as I leave and whisper softly,
goodnight my love, goodnight
I long for a place to lay my head
a home fragrant,pleasant, a well made bed.
Treasures made by little hands
and the feeling God loves me and understands.
Dance
I will dance with the stars all around me,
dance with the rising new moon,
I will dance to soft wild music
from noon until midnight, from midnight till noon.
I will dance in the arms of romance,
dance in the midst of my friends
I will dance on and on without ceasing,
forever to music that never ends.
I will dance till the last morning finds me,
I will dance till the last sunset dies,
I will dance till the music is gone
and it's time for our final goodbyes.
I will dance without losing my rhythm.
I will dance without losing my breath.
timeless, ageless, and laughing
until the day of my death.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Hero
I know that you have lived a disconnected life
not really knowing who you are or who you want to be.
But you have within you a very special seed
that given love and nourishment can grow into a tree
It's something to discover, who you really are
and find out you can shine as bright as any star.
It's a quest for more than glory, a shining from within
when you learn to become the you that could have been
and I know you are worth believing,
somebody special, someone worth keeping
I know someday you will rise
paint stars and rainbows in the skies
and anywhere that you may go
even though we're far apart
You'll live on the legendary
hero of my heart.
not really knowing who you are or who you want to be.
But you have within you a very special seed
that given love and nourishment can grow into a tree
It's something to discover, who you really are
and find out you can shine as bright as any star.
It's a quest for more than glory, a shining from within
when you learn to become the you that could have been
and I know you are worth believing,
somebody special, someone worth keeping
I know someday you will rise
paint stars and rainbows in the skies
and anywhere that you may go
even though we're far apart
You'll live on the legendary
hero of my heart.
One dream of Paradise
My paradise has curtains stirring in the breeze
the coolness of an arbor, the rustling of soft leaves
Loved ones I wrap my arms around when I feel too alone
The greatest part of Paradise lives within my home.
All people have their own ideas of what paradise means.
Some find it in reality, some only have their dreams.
I think anyone can understand the dream I'm dreaming of.
The greatest dream of Paradise is where we all are loved.
the coolness of an arbor, the rustling of soft leaves
Loved ones I wrap my arms around when I feel too alone
The greatest part of Paradise lives within my home.
All people have their own ideas of what paradise means.
Some find it in reality, some only have their dreams.
I think anyone can understand the dream I'm dreaming of.
The greatest dream of Paradise is where we all are loved.
Tolerance
A person worth loving is someone who needs
someone who cries, someone who bleeds.
Someone who struggles with trials and strife,
someone who's trying to make it through life.
Someone worth loving may not do great things
may not wear nice clothes or fancy rings
may have been passed over by everyone
may be grieving still over things they've done.
Someone worth loving is hopeless, yet hoping
reaching to find another hand groping
searching for love in dry sandy places
turning again to familiar faces.
There is more than one side to living.
One side must accept what the other is giving
In the end there's no righteous offense
and no teacher like experience.
Walk a mile in the shoes wherein others have trod
and realize that we are all children of God
and we can have tolerance as sisters and brothers
and learn to accept and love one another.
someone who cries, someone who bleeds.
Someone who struggles with trials and strife,
someone who's trying to make it through life.
Someone worth loving may not do great things
may not wear nice clothes or fancy rings
may have been passed over by everyone
may be grieving still over things they've done.
Someone worth loving is hopeless, yet hoping
reaching to find another hand groping
searching for love in dry sandy places
turning again to familiar faces.
There is more than one side to living.
One side must accept what the other is giving
In the end there's no righteous offense
and no teacher like experience.
Walk a mile in the shoes wherein others have trod
and realize that we are all children of God
and we can have tolerance as sisters and brothers
and learn to accept and love one another.
Acquaintance
I say hello, then it's time to go
I never really got to know you.
Time goes fast and at the last
you and I part as strangers.
We say we'll write to be polite
but we know we never will.
And we lose, by the options we choose
passing by what could have been...
The sunlight wanes to the lonesome strains
of a melancholy melody
I'd be true if I only knew
you.
We say goodbye for soon we'll fly
away on separate winds.
We don't know where we will go
but we'll never be here again.
The sunlight wanes to the lonesome strains of
a melancholy melody
I'd be true if I only knew
you.
Time goes fast and at the last
you and I part as strangers.
We say we'll write to be polite
but we know we never will.
And we lose, by the options we choose
passing by what could have been...
The sunlight wanes to the lonesome strains
of a melancholy melody
I'd be true if I only knew
you.
We say goodbye for soon we'll fly
away on separate winds.
We don't know where we will go
but we'll never be here again.
The sunlight wanes to the lonesome strains of
a melancholy melody
I'd be true if I only knew
you.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Illusion of a stranger
You shimmer soft within my mind
as crickets sing their lullabye
and the moon illuminates the sky.
Silver beams trace leaves and mountains
in a flat dark shadow sea
small stars blink as midnight clouds drift slowly by.
I hear you whisper in the wind
that riffles through my hair
a vision of your moonlit face hovers in midair
remembrances of you
enfold me in the night
take away my sorrows until the morning light
I hear your laughter echo
through the quiet dark
of the empty half forgotten chambers of my heart
feel the pressure as my heart
is crushed beneath your tread
as your image shimmers soft, so soft within my head
Uncommitted
Until the day
when I have to go away
I'll just pretend that you love me.
You have your time
I won't fight for it, cause it's not mine.
You go where your heart is, and
it isn't there where I would be
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like
if we really wanted to share our lives
with each other...
So take your time and spend it on yourself
You know what makes you happy more than anyone else.
And be with things and places you most want to be
and for a while I'll pretend that it's with me.
when I have to go away
I'll just pretend that you love me.
You have your time
I won't fight for it, cause it's not mine.
You go where your heart is, and
it isn't there where I would be
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like
if we really wanted to share our lives
with each other...
So take your time and spend it on yourself
You know what makes you happy more than anyone else.
And be with things and places you most want to be
and for a while I'll pretend that it's with me.
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Math Burnout
I keep recreating, regenerating
negative numbers and nulls
Seems all my natural numbers
wind up undefined polynomials
But with the right coefficients
to cancel the difference
factors would all be prime
divisible only by one other number and mine.
As quantification formats all relations
statistics decay in their allocations
Plotting slopes lose the origin
infinite, opposite neither side wins.
But with the right coefficient
to cancel the difference
factors would all be prime
divisible only by one other number and mine.
negative numbers and nulls
Seems all my natural numbers
wind up undefined polynomials
But with the right coefficients
to cancel the difference
factors would all be prime
divisible only by one other number and mine.
As quantification formats all relations
statistics decay in their allocations
Plotting slopes lose the origin
infinite, opposite neither side wins.
But with the right coefficient
to cancel the difference
factors would all be prime
divisible only by one other number and mine.
Order
I need a vacation
from disorganization.
I want walls with no marks
and my yard like a park
I want heaven at home with me
and a floor I can always see.
I don't need diamond rings
just places to put things
out of my way
and can find them each day.
I'd have peace of mind
if I only could find
clear space on my floors
and all I look for...
No more wasted time
Instead, peace of mind.
Yes I need a vacation,
from disorganization.
from disorganization.
I want walls with no marks
and my yard like a park
I want heaven at home with me
and a floor I can always see.
I don't need diamond rings
just places to put things
out of my way
and can find them each day.
I'd have peace of mind
if I only could find
clear space on my floors
and all I look for...
No more wasted time
Instead, peace of mind.
Yes I need a vacation,
from disorganization.
A prayer
Please God, give me back the years
laid waste by sorrow and useless tears
that ran like rivers and washed away
the hopes and dreams of yesterday
Please fill my heart with love again
the wonder that I felt back when
the world was new and filled with grace
and simple joys now erased...
Help me find the spirit then
to feel alive in thee again
and rest my faith in thy dear hands
submit my will to thy commands...
And I be content to live my part
to live with Heaven in my heart
no more to seek a bitter end
and be thy child again
Out
Not a blossom, a withered bud
scars encrusted by dark, hardened blood
Weary spirit caught in the past
looking to find peace and freedom at last.
longing to breathe outside air again
to laugh and smile and sing again
roll in grass and catch the breeze
climb waving branches of the trees
see the world in a better light
serene glimmer of stars at night
dive into fluffy clouds, swim in the sky
live in truth and no more lies
bathe in moonlit waterfalls
balance on fragrant garden walls
drink the warmth of summer sun
leap and dance and lightly run
play hide and seek with rainbows
live sweetest dreams that anyone knows
live no more a silent wraith.
Live a life of love and faith.
scars encrusted by dark, hardened blood
Weary spirit caught in the past
looking to find peace and freedom at last.
longing to breathe outside air again
to laugh and smile and sing again
roll in grass and catch the breeze
climb waving branches of the trees
see the world in a better light
serene glimmer of stars at night
dive into fluffy clouds, swim in the sky
live in truth and no more lies
bathe in moonlit waterfalls
balance on fragrant garden walls
drink the warmth of summer sun
leap and dance and lightly run
play hide and seek with rainbows
live sweetest dreams that anyone knows
live no more a silent wraith.
Live a life of love and faith.
Introspection
Are you living with someone else's decisions
instead of making choices of your own?
Are you driven, by anothers ambitions
and not by yours alone?
Have your dreams been devoured
by someone else's schemes?
have your hopes fallen by the way
and need to be redeemed?
Are you driven, by anothers ambitions
and not by yours alone?
Have your dreams been devoured
by someone else's schemes?
have your hopes fallen by the way
and need to be redeemed?
The burden
You want to lose weight but however you try
you can't run away from the weight inside
You can become slim and shapely, suave, debonair
but the person you are will always be there.
So run as fast and far as you can.
Change your face, name, gender to woman or man.
but who you are will still be the same.
Always yourself inside, that won't change.
People are too complex to say you know them well.
They have too many stories that they will never tell
you can't run away from the weight inside
You can become slim and shapely, suave, debonair
but the person you are will always be there.
So run as fast and far as you can.
Change your face, name, gender to woman or man.
but who you are will still be the same.
Always yourself inside, that won't change.
People are too complex to say you know them well.
They have too many stories that they will never tell
New day
Days that have been, days that will be,
places I've been to, places I'll see
pass through my thoughts, regrets for the sorrow
repenting the past, and dreams for tomorrow.
Love lives within me, love I must give
suppress hate and anger to make goodness live
Peace would be ours if everyone gave
of the love within that all of us have.
Life has begun, life too will pass
the wealthy and poor all alike under grass
and the sweet wind sweeps yesterday's old dust away.
Readies the world for a new man's day.
places I've been to, places I'll see
pass through my thoughts, regrets for the sorrow
repenting the past, and dreams for tomorrow.
Love lives within me, love I must give
suppress hate and anger to make goodness live
Peace would be ours if everyone gave
of the love within that all of us have.
Life has begun, life too will pass
the wealthy and poor all alike under grass
and the sweet wind sweeps yesterday's old dust away.
Readies the world for a new man's day.
Missing things
I'm lonely for the perfume of sun warmed roses,
the spun sugar clouds of the morning sky
smell of rain on willows by the river
small breath of wind, soft as a sigh.
thunder like rolling wagon wheels.
red cedar swing in the dusky twilight
tiny stars glimmering in
the freshening of night.
raindrops like tiny soldiers jumping out of puddles.
a calm place to be alone and think out all my troubles.
filling my own needs instead of having them filled
caring for my garden and consuming the yield.
Someday I will be old.
Some things I'll no longer know.
Maybe I will lose my thoughts
and all I sought to hold.
I will miss the wonders
I've lived in and loved
and the influence in my life...
of God above
The singer
He made people feel loved, gave them reason and hope to go on.
He wanted to heal all the hurting and right all the wrongs.
And one day he flew into the sun and suddenly was gone.
The singer is gone but the love that he brought us is still living on...
He sang of the mountains and trees, Nature's beautiful things
He sang about life, about love, and the comfort it brings
He sang about people, their deeds and their hopes and their dreams
He sang about feelings and goodness and what living means
The singer is gone but the songs that he sang are still echoing on...
He loved the earth and all of the wonders it holds
He sang songs of treasures worth far more than silver and gold.
Life and death touch regardless of cause or intent
But how sad it was to see his life come to it's end.
The singer is gone but the songs that he sang are still echoing on...
The singer is gone but the feelings he brought us are still living on...
He wanted to heal all the hurting and right all the wrongs.
And one day he flew into the sun and suddenly was gone.
The singer is gone but the love that he brought us is still living on...
He sang of the mountains and trees, Nature's beautiful things
He sang about life, about love, and the comfort it brings
He sang about people, their deeds and their hopes and their dreams
He sang about feelings and goodness and what living means
The singer is gone but the songs that he sang are still echoing on...
He loved the earth and all of the wonders it holds
He sang songs of treasures worth far more than silver and gold.
Life and death touch regardless of cause or intent
But how sad it was to see his life come to it's end.
The singer is gone but the songs that he sang are still echoing on...
The singer is gone but the feelings he brought us are still living on...
Monday, June 13, 2011
Lost souls
The lost soul out in the street
with dirty clothes and not much to eat
with no sign of family, no sign of friends
living you don't know how and can only imagine.
The woman with the shopping cart sleeping in the alley
might be someone's mother, was once someone's baby
If we don't ask is it because we don't care,
or are we afraid we too could be there?
Well that woman with the shopping cart sleeping in the alleys
someone's mother, sister, cousin, wife, was once someone's baby.
and she's still one of God's children and her pains and prayers
mean just as much to God as any of ours.
The ragged man in the park, on the bench, on the beach
the wandering people no one trusts and no one can reach
they laugh, they cry, they hurt, they bleed
they need the same things as you or me.
If we don't ask is it because we don't care,
or are we afraid we too could be there?
with dirty clothes and not much to eat
with no sign of family, no sign of friends
living you don't know how and can only imagine.
The woman with the shopping cart sleeping in the alley
might be someone's mother, was once someone's baby
If we don't ask is it because we don't care,
or are we afraid we too could be there?
Well that woman with the shopping cart sleeping in the alleys
someone's mother, sister, cousin, wife, was once someone's baby.
and she's still one of God's children and her pains and prayers
mean just as much to God as any of ours.
The ragged man in the park, on the bench, on the beach
the wandering people no one trusts and no one can reach
they laugh, they cry, they hurt, they bleed
they need the same things as you or me.
If we don't ask is it because we don't care,
or are we afraid we too could be there?
Fading vision
As I feel my vision die
as the once bright colors fade
as the details in my mind
blur like underwater shades
uncertainty presides,
I'm not safe nor yet in danger
and the whisper fills my heart
of the ever present stranger
Learning life all over
as I've never lived before
the independent spirit bound
will fly again once more
In the healing soul
I will learn to rise
and the whisper of a stranger
light a fire in my dead eyes.
as the details in my mind
blur like underwater shades
uncertainty presides,
I'm not safe nor yet in danger
and the whisper fills my heart
of the ever present stranger
Learning life all over
as I've never lived before
the independent spirit bound
will fly again once more
In the healing soul
I will learn to rise
and the whisper of a stranger
light a fire in my dead eyes.
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Matches
Somewhere in another place,
behind another someone's face
there's another human mind
thinking thoughts a lot like mine
Somewhere in somebody's home,
someone else sits all alone
wishing they could somehow find
someone else with thoughts like mine.
Somewhere in somebody's dreams,
someone hears my silent screams
understands my misery,
wishes they could comfort me.
Somehow believing someone's there
calms my dark unwholesome fear
relieves some of the loneliness,
makes the hurting somewhat less.
Somewhere in somebody's heart,
there's a space, an empty part
like one in mine that dreams can't fill
or know the way that someone will.
Somewhere someone looks for me,
hoping they may finally see
hoping soon they'll finally meet,
who or whatever makes life complete.
It seems my search is never done,
searching for this other one
Hoping someday I will see
the somebody who matches me.
behind another someone's face
there's another human mind
thinking thoughts a lot like mine
Somewhere in somebody's home,
someone else sits all alone
wishing they could somehow find
someone else with thoughts like mine.
Somewhere in somebody's dreams,
someone hears my silent screams
understands my misery,
wishes they could comfort me.
Somehow believing someone's there
calms my dark unwholesome fear
relieves some of the loneliness,
makes the hurting somewhat less.
Somewhere in somebody's heart,
there's a space, an empty part
like one in mine that dreams can't fill
or know the way that someone will.
Somewhere someone looks for me,
hoping they may finally see
hoping soon they'll finally meet,
who or whatever makes life complete.
It seems my search is never done,
searching for this other one
Hoping someday I will see
the somebody who matches me.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Goodbye Arizona
Saguaros in the sunset wave a sad goodbye,
as I ride out of Arizona.
The sun burnished desert, sandy and dry
seems to be calling me back,
but my heart belongs elsewhere and so do I.
Goodbye Arizona goodbye.
Goodbye to you from your once loyal daughter,
I'm leaving your memory behind.
I search for a land with tall pines and water...
you know why I can't stay.
You know I've sought something so long and so far.
You can't offer what I search for.
Dust devils and tumbleweeds dance in the wind,
do they feel as dizzy as I?
My tarry with you has now come to an end.
I wonder if you'll even miss me?
Coyote's cry echoes in my heart my friend.
I am mourning our parting.
I see the saguaros wave as I ride
away from Arizona,
I feel like I'm bleeding somewhere inside
I want so much to stay,
but I've life to discover and dreams to find
so goodbye Arizona, goodbye.
as I ride out of Arizona.
The sun burnished desert, sandy and dry
seems to be calling me back,
but my heart belongs elsewhere and so do I.
Goodbye Arizona goodbye.
Goodbye to you from your once loyal daughter,
I'm leaving your memory behind.
I search for a land with tall pines and water...
you know why I can't stay.
You know I've sought something so long and so far.
You can't offer what I search for.
Dust devils and tumbleweeds dance in the wind,
do they feel as dizzy as I?
My tarry with you has now come to an end.
I wonder if you'll even miss me?
Coyote's cry echoes in my heart my friend.
I am mourning our parting.
I see the saguaros wave as I ride
away from Arizona,
I feel like I'm bleeding somewhere inside
I want so much to stay,
but I've life to discover and dreams to find
so goodbye Arizona, goodbye.
Wings
If I only had soft wings to fly, I would fly away
away into the azure sky, where the seagulls play
out where limits don't apply, where I can be free
a place I'll need no alibi and I can just be me.
If I only had soft wings to fly, I would fly away
where grass is always green, skies are never gray.
Where love and peace and happiness never cease to grow,
a place I'll never want to leave, that's where I want to go.
If I only had soft wings to fly, I would fly away
and I would take you with me to a place where we could stay
then we could be together for always you and I
if I only had soft wings, soft feathered wings to fly.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Sparrow
Strong eagle shelter me with your dark wings
but hold back your razorlike talons.
The rain beats hard against my small feathers,
and I a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind,
I, a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind.
Strong eagle protect me with your dark wings.
Many would harm me without any thought
because I'm an orphan alone, all alone.
and I a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind,
I, a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind.
Strong eagle enfold me in your dark wings
keep me warm but do not crush me.
My small body shivers and quakes in the cold,
and I a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind,
I, a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind.
The rain beats hard against my small feathers,
and I a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind,
I, a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind.
Strong eagle protect me with your dark wings.
Many would harm me without any thought
because I'm an orphan alone, all alone.
and I a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind,
I, a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind.
Strong eagle enfold me in your dark wings
keep me warm but do not crush me.
My small body shivers and quakes in the cold,
and I a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind,
I, a poor sparrow am tossed by the wind.
Inexperience
Those who have eyes but never use them
for fear they'll lose them
may as well be blind.
Those who have ears that only hear things
but never listen
are lost to our minds.
Don't see the dark side, don't see the light
don't hear the sadness, the cries in the night.
Life and love may be shouting your name
but you cover your head, their efforts in vain...
And we who have eyes never see you
we may as well be blind.
And we who have ears never hear you
never know you in our minds.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Saved
You tapped my veins and let blood spill freely
like a red waterfall flowing swift to the ground
and your eyes fiery vengeance burning right through me
you carelessly watched me sink down.
And you turned to go, but you didn't know
somebody else was there
who saw you betray me, someone who saved me
who answered my desperate prayers
Angel tears fell on my suffering face
warm caring arms lifted me from the ground
blood disappeared, tears turned to sunlight
kaleidoscope colors came dancing around.
You turned and left but you didn't know
somebody else was there
who saw you betray me, someone who saved me,
somebody who cared
and answered my desperate prayers.
Stillborn
He died before he had a chance to live
His mother's tears fell on his little face.
As they put him in her arms they sympathized
with this girl who'd never see her baby's eyes.
So many plans to cherish him and watch as he grew,
but now forced to change her plans and point of view...
Now she grieves her child, nothing comforts
the empty arms, the agony inside.
She'd gladly trade places, she'd give anything
to bring back the child who died.
Her heart ached like never before
as his still body was laid in the ground
and she wept bitter tears for her son.
His life was over before it begun.
As they put him in her arms they sympathized
with this girl who'd never see her baby's eyes.
So many plans to cherish him and watch as he grew,
but now forced to change her plans and point of view...
Now she grieves her child, nothing comforts
the empty arms, the agony inside.
She'd gladly trade places, she'd give anything
to bring back the child who died.
Her heart ached like never before
as his still body was laid in the ground
and she wept bitter tears for her son.
His life was over before it begun.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Lucky
It's easier to hide when something goes wrong
than tell someone else what's going on.
When I'm trying to understand what's real
and how I am supposed to feel.
Some feel angry, some feel hurt
Trying to please everyone never works.
It would be so nice if I just knew it all
made no mistakes, nor had to fall.
But I suppose if life were peachy
No one would be able to teach me.
I'd have no compassion, no love to give
I'd be insufferable to live with.
There are times when I think
my cup of humility is over filled
with too many feelings of fear and doubt
too many things to be mad about.
I feel too distressed to stay,
I wish I could run away...
But I can't just pack up and go
too many people need me I know
and in this world of people so lonely
I'm lucky to have someone who loves me.
than tell someone else what's going on.
When I'm trying to understand what's real
and how I am supposed to feel.
Some feel angry, some feel hurt
Trying to please everyone never works.
It would be so nice if I just knew it all
made no mistakes, nor had to fall.
But I suppose if life were peachy
No one would be able to teach me.
I'd have no compassion, no love to give
I'd be insufferable to live with.
There are times when I think
my cup of humility is over filled
with too many feelings of fear and doubt
too many things to be mad about.
I feel too distressed to stay,
I wish I could run away...
But I can't just pack up and go
too many people need me I know
and in this world of people so lonely
I'm lucky to have someone who loves me.
Before
Violent hands, tearing and shaking
every promise breaking
crushing my arms, crushing my skin
crushing out my breath, crushing me within.
I am smaller, I am weaker than you.
But what I can do
is stab you with my eyes
and hate and despise
The one I promised to love and care for
the one I said I would be there for
I said I would stay
forever and a day
Oh, but that was before...
Violent hands grabbed my hair
violent hands grasped my arms
and the children cried out
in fear and alarm
I am smaller, I am weaker than you
but what I can do
is stab you with my eyes
and hate and despise
The one I promised to love and care for
the one I said I would be there for
I said I would stay
forever and a day
Oh, but that was before...
every promise breaking
crushing my arms, crushing my skin
crushing out my breath, crushing me within.
I am smaller, I am weaker than you.
But what I can do
is stab you with my eyes
and hate and despise
The one I promised to love and care for
the one I said I would be there for
I said I would stay
forever and a day
Oh, but that was before...
Violent hands grabbed my hair
violent hands grasped my arms
and the children cried out
in fear and alarm
I am smaller, I am weaker than you
but what I can do
is stab you with my eyes
and hate and despise
The one I promised to love and care for
the one I said I would be there for
I said I would stay
forever and a day
Oh, but that was before...
Depression
The terrible silence, my greatest fear
remains unbroken as yet by any
continues to grow inside my ears
filling my whole body.
Bound up my hands, bound up my heart
locked my mind, blinded my eyes
leaving me speechless, cold and dark,
taken my strength, forced me down to my knees.
The beautiful no longer can bring pleasure to my eye,
sound and feeling now are not what I once felt inside.
Instead this intense emptiness
has now replaced my thought and sense
and I cannot break through.
Oh God, what shall I do?.
remains unbroken as yet by any
continues to grow inside my ears
filling my whole body.
Bound up my hands, bound up my heart
locked my mind, blinded my eyes
leaving me speechless, cold and dark,
taken my strength, forced me down to my knees.
The beautiful no longer can bring pleasure to my eye,
sound and feeling now are not what I once felt inside.
Instead this intense emptiness
has now replaced my thought and sense
and I cannot break through.
Oh God, what shall I do?.
Business
Business people are predators who wait and watch to see what will make you happy so they can take it away and sell it back to you.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Japan nuclear plant
Japan nuclear plant to release radioactive water into sea | World news | The Guardian
One of the horrible choices someone has to make to prevent a greater catastrophe. How glad I am that I am not the one who has to feel the burden of that decision for the rest of my life. I think this decision will affect the level of toxins in this world. Obviously our society needs this lesson. We have been dependent on our power supplies without really being conscious of the danger they present. The cost of human lives is tremendous. I don't think even now that we can truly comprehend the full measure of what it costs. I hope we won't have to. I hope we as a society will stop making others sacrifice for our own self fulfillment.
One of the horrible choices someone has to make to prevent a greater catastrophe. How glad I am that I am not the one who has to feel the burden of that decision for the rest of my life. I think this decision will affect the level of toxins in this world. Obviously our society needs this lesson. We have been dependent on our power supplies without really being conscious of the danger they present. The cost of human lives is tremendous. I don't think even now that we can truly comprehend the full measure of what it costs. I hope we won't have to. I hope we as a society will stop making others sacrifice for our own self fulfillment.
The price of Paradise
One revolution could not supply
power enough to satisfy.
Ten revolutions or twenty or more
still won't produce the power longed for.
And so revolutions continue over and over and on
ever the quest for power continues, never done.
What is the price, what is the cost
if one or more revolutions are lost,
will that stop this Great Machine
or is there a Great Machine to stop?
Who or what requires power
measures out the final hour.
In the end, who pays the price
to support our illusions of paradise?
Ten revolutions or twenty or more
still won't produce the power longed for.
And so revolutions continue over and over and on
ever the quest for power continues, never done.
What is the price, what is the cost
if one or more revolutions are lost,
will that stop this Great Machine
or is there a Great Machine to stop?
Who or what requires power
measures out the final hour.
In the end, who pays the price
to support our illusions of paradise?
Beaches
Watch the waves curl toward the land
beat themselves against the sand
hear the gulls cry as they play,
hear the tides washing away
Shells so fragile in my hand
scattered all along the strand
tossed and broken on the beach
laid out for the sun to bleach
Sun so warm against my skin
let the sun come soaking in
see the half nude people play
watch the palm trees bend and sway
Ships move slowly out of sight
beyond horizon's unbroken line
surfers stand and pitch and roll
fight the ocean for control
Sand in everything I wear
shoes, shirt, shorts, and underwear.
When I return will what I see
still be here to welcome me?
beat themselves against the sand
hear the gulls cry as they play,
hear the tides washing away
Shells so fragile in my hand
scattered all along the strand
tossed and broken on the beach
laid out for the sun to bleach
Sun so warm against my skin
let the sun come soaking in
see the half nude people play
watch the palm trees bend and sway
Ships move slowly out of sight
beyond horizon's unbroken line
surfers stand and pitch and roll
fight the ocean for control
Sand in everything I wear
shoes, shirt, shorts, and underwear.
When I return will what I see
still be here to welcome me?
Shadow
If I could love a shadow with a love so strong and true
it never could be broken, that shadow would be you.
I'd feel your arms around me, hear you breathing in my mind,
but when I turn to hold you, empty air is all I'd find.
Thirsting for your kisses, hungry for your love,
afraid to trust or love one I can never be sure of.
Was I lost in reverie or were you really there?
Maybe my loneliness made you appear.
Not really a lover, nor a friend,
nor even a dream to bring me comfort in the night
just an echo of a feeling my heart held within,
just a wisp of a thought out of sight.
it never could be broken, that shadow would be you.
I'd feel your arms around me, hear you breathing in my mind,
but when I turn to hold you, empty air is all I'd find.
Thirsting for your kisses, hungry for your love,
afraid to trust or love one I can never be sure of.
Was I lost in reverie or were you really there?
Maybe my loneliness made you appear.
Not really a lover, nor a friend,
nor even a dream to bring me comfort in the night
just an echo of a feeling my heart held within,
just a wisp of a thought out of sight.
Image
If I could re-create myself as someone else
whom you could see as someone to admire
I might capture the dreams in your jaded eye
if any love still exists in your heart to inspire
After all the years pass by do feelings matter anymore
or do they wash beneath the bridges to die on rocky shores?
If you only love an image where will you be
When the image fades away, and all that's left is me?
I might capture the dreams in your jaded eye
if any love still exists in your heart to inspire
After all the years pass by do feelings matter anymore
or do they wash beneath the bridges to die on rocky shores?
If you only love an image where will you be
When the image fades away, and all that's left is me?
Missing People
Sometimes when I'm going about my day
my thoughts and feelings wander away
and wrap themselves round a memory
of someone I never hear or see
My memories belong to long ago
to people I used to love and know
who I can't reach but love remains
and I hold in my heart their faces and names
And I miss the sound of their voices
I miss the sounds of their souls
I'm longing and hoping to see them again
and feel what I felt long ago
Isn't it strange when some books end
though you know what's inside, you must read them again?
That's how I feel for my friends.
I just wish I knew where they are, how they've been
I miss the sounds of their souls
those I remember from long ago
sweetness mixed with pain
wishing to know them again
and wrap themselves round a memory
of someone I never hear or see
My memories belong to long ago
to people I used to love and know
who I can't reach but love remains
and I hold in my heart their faces and names
And I miss the sound of their voices
I miss the sounds of their souls
I'm longing and hoping to see them again
and feel what I felt long ago
Isn't it strange when some books end
though you know what's inside, you must read them again?
That's how I feel for my friends.
I just wish I knew where they are, how they've been
I miss the sounds of their souls
those I remember from long ago
sweetness mixed with pain
wishing to know them again
Free speech and the right to remain silent
We are free in this country to say anything we think of
about anything or anyone we choose.
But saying just anything can make the world a bitter place
and speaking freely, there's so much we could lose...
We are free to say what we want but words are used as swords
to stab at innocent or unsuspecting victims
And you may find those bitter words, left alone to come around,
that you too may be wounded with them.
If we use our words wisely we can make the world better
but the world can also change through silence
and maybe some words given proper restraints
would relieve the world of violence?
A word to the wise with cautious eyes
who still understand what's at stake
Let old and young learn to govern their tongues
for all of humanity's sake.
There are thousands of words with good meanings,
and so many nice things to say
People out there do many nice things
that pass unnoticed every day.
They pass unnoticed, but should they?
The world could be so full of wonder, ideal,
if people could remember the way to feel.
Wonder at butterflies, revel in rain,
and hold back those words that might hurt them...
about anything or anyone we choose.
But saying just anything can make the world a bitter place
and speaking freely, there's so much we could lose...
We are free to say what we want but words are used as swords
to stab at innocent or unsuspecting victims
And you may find those bitter words, left alone to come around,
that you too may be wounded with them.
If we use our words wisely we can make the world better
but the world can also change through silence
and maybe some words given proper restraints
would relieve the world of violence?
A word to the wise with cautious eyes
who still understand what's at stake
Let old and young learn to govern their tongues
for all of humanity's sake.
There are thousands of words with good meanings,
and so many nice things to say
People out there do many nice things
that pass unnoticed every day.
They pass unnoticed, but should they?
The world could be so full of wonder, ideal,
if people could remember the way to feel.
Wonder at butterflies, revel in rain,
and hold back those words that might hurt them...
Enemy within
My worst potential enemy
lives inside myself
shares my face, shares my name,
shares my body, shares my brain.
We spend our waking hours
fighting for control
she to dominate
and I to save my soul
Lifelong struggle
perhaps never to win
for who can expel
the enemy within?
lives inside myself
shares my face, shares my name,
shares my body, shares my brain.
We spend our waking hours
fighting for control
she to dominate
and I to save my soul
Lifelong struggle
perhaps never to win
for who can expel
the enemy within?
Who will love my children?
Who will love my children
when I am gone away?
Who will comfort when they cry
or smile when they play?
Who will teach them all
the things they'll need to know?
who will watch and pray for them
and help their faith to grow?
Who'll preserve their memories
who will ease their minds
when their souls weary of searching
for answers they can't find
Who will help them reach
for the best that they can be,
who will shield them from
the evils they can't see?
Who will love my children
teach them right from wrong
give them all I hope for them
if their mother's gone?
when I am gone away?
Who will comfort when they cry
or smile when they play?
Who will teach them all
the things they'll need to know?
who will watch and pray for them
and help their faith to grow?
Who'll preserve their memories
who will ease their minds
when their souls weary of searching
for answers they can't find
Who will help them reach
for the best that they can be,
who will shield them from
the evils they can't see?
Who will love my children
teach them right from wrong
give them all I hope for them
if their mother's gone?
Labors
Oh children, so innocent you are,
playing around me without a care
still unafraid, still unaware
of all of the evils waiting out there...
When you grow up you will find
all sorts of ways people use their minds
to justify making lifelong careers
by preying on fellow men's worries and fears.
The worst monsters lurk behind nice faces
Plotters with elegant social graces
clean, well dressed, not a hair amiss
who betray with a smile, or tender kiss...
They toil not neither spin
luring the laborer within
a web of vain promises and lies
dangling the bait in front of his eyes
drawing out to the very last,
blood and sweat and tears they cast
in his face the laborer's wage
unequal to the price he paid.
playing around me without a care
still unafraid, still unaware
of all of the evils waiting out there...
When you grow up you will find
all sorts of ways people use their minds
to justify making lifelong careers
by preying on fellow men's worries and fears.
The worst monsters lurk behind nice faces
Plotters with elegant social graces
clean, well dressed, not a hair amiss
who betray with a smile, or tender kiss...
They toil not neither spin
luring the laborer within
a web of vain promises and lies
dangling the bait in front of his eyes
drawing out to the very last,
blood and sweat and tears they cast
in his face the laborer's wage
unequal to the price he paid.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Disrespect
He said, "It isn't abuse
if there isn't a bruise"
as he grasped her arms
and held her to the wall
and blocked her way
and mocked what she'd say
with no defense
she maintained her silence.
The children watched
their father rage
speak to their mother
in a condescending way
And when he was gone
the raging went on
between the children
and their Mom.
See, daddy doesn't show respect
for the mother of his children.
That makes her job much harder
when he is finally gone
They won't respect or obey her,
and she has to fight them
And disrespect rolls down the line
and rages on and on.
if there isn't a bruise"
as he grasped her arms
and held her to the wall
and blocked her way
and mocked what she'd say
with no defense
she maintained her silence.
The children watched
their father rage
speak to their mother
in a condescending way
And when he was gone
the raging went on
between the children
and their Mom.
See, daddy doesn't show respect
for the mother of his children.
That makes her job much harder
when he is finally gone
They won't respect or obey her,
and she has to fight them
And disrespect rolls down the line
and rages on and on.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Patents on Life: A Crisis in Progress
Patents on Life: A Crisis in Progress
This is my paper for English 2020 written in 2006. It was an agonizing paper for me to write because I was preoccupied with many ethical dilemmas pertaining to life and family. I failed the class the first time around because of incompletion. The paper is written in APA format and deals primarily with bioethics and the patent office. I am not the best writer and I have a definite prejudice in favor of families owning all of their genetic offspring/ancestors/byproducts rather than allowing the world to be run by people wielding oppressive invasive technology.
I am truly grateful to my great neighbor Clayton White. He did not try to write my paper for me and has not read it yet, but he identified the issue giving me writer's block and I was able to complete my paper. There can be no better friend and neighbor than one who will give you support in a time of need. Thank you most sincerely Brother White.
This is my paper for English 2020 written in 2006. It was an agonizing paper for me to write because I was preoccupied with many ethical dilemmas pertaining to life and family. I failed the class the first time around because of incompletion. The paper is written in APA format and deals primarily with bioethics and the patent office. I am not the best writer and I have a definite prejudice in favor of families owning all of their genetic offspring/ancestors/byproducts rather than allowing the world to be run by people wielding oppressive invasive technology.
I am truly grateful to my great neighbor Clayton White. He did not try to write my paper for me and has not read it yet, but he identified the issue giving me writer's block and I was able to complete my paper. There can be no better friend and neighbor than one who will give you support in a time of need. Thank you most sincerely Brother White.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Bread on the waters
Put your bread on the waters
and let it go.
Don't worry where it goes
you'll probably never know
for the Lord feeds the many
and chooses just a few
and the bread you give freely
will come back to you
There are many things worth having
they give us reasons for living
the greatest is loving
which gives us reasons for giving
because everybody bleeds
and everyone has needs
and our worth is measured by
what we do and believe
So put your bread upon the waters
don't worry where it goes.
It's still out there somewhere
that only God knows.
And someday if you're lonely
and needing a friend.
The bread you gave away
will come around to you again.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
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2 Nephi 9:28-29
28. O that cunning plan of the evil one! O the vainness, and the frailties, and the foolishness of men! When they are learned they think they are wise, and they hearken not unto the counsel of God, for they set it aside, supposing they know of themselves, wherefore, their wisdom is foolishness and it profiteth them not. And they shall perish.
29. But to be learned is good if they hearken unto the counsels of God.
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I have never thought of myself as being very good academically.
I do understand that whatever I know
belongs to God and must be used in His behalf
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Alma 41:10
10. Do not suppose, because it has been spoken concerning restoration,
that ye shall be restored from sin to happiness.
Behold, I say unto you, wickedness never was happiness. --------------------------
Wickedness is not happiness.
that ye shall be restored from sin to happiness.
Behold, I say unto you, wickedness never was happiness. --------------------------
Wickedness is not happiness.
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Color code personality test
7--14--21--3PERSONALITY STRENGTHS AND LIMITATIONS
Directions: Select the word or phrase that best describes what you are like most of the time. Be honest!
1.
a) opinionated
b) nurturing
c) inventive
d) outgoing
2.
a) power-oriented
b) perfectionist
c) indecisive
d) self-centered
3.
a) dominant
b) sympathetic
c) tolerant
d) enthusiastic
4.
a) self-serving
b) suspicious
c) unsure
d) naive
5.
a) decisive
b) loyal
c) contented
d) playful
6.
a) arrogant
b) worry prone
c) silently stubborn
d) flighty
7.
a) assertive
b) reliable
c) kind
d) sociable
8.
a) bossy
b) self-critical
c) reluctant
d) a teaser
9.
a) action-oriented
b) analytical
c) easygoing
d) carefree
10.
a) critical of others
b) overly sensitive
c) shy
d) obnoxious
11.
a) determined
b) detail conscious
c) a good listner
d) a party person
12.
a) demanding
b) unforgiving
c) unmotivated
d) vain
13.
a) responsible
b) idealistic
c) considerate
d) happy
14.
a) impatient
b) moody
c) passive
d) impulsive
15.
a) strong-willed
b) respectful
c) patient
d) fun-loving
16.
a) argumentative
b) unrealistic
c) directionless
d) an interrupter
17.
a) independent
b) dependable
c) even-tempered
d) trusting
18.
a) aggressive
b) frequently depressed
c) ambivalent
d) forgetful
19.
a) powerful
b) deliberate
c) gentle
d) optimistic
20.
a) insensitive
b) judgemental
c) boring
d) undisciplined
21.
a) logical
b) emotional
c) agreeable
d) popular
22.
a) always right
b) guilt prone
c) unenthusiastic
d) uncommitted
23.
a) pragmatic
b) well-behaved
c) accepting
d) spontaneous
24.
a) merciless
b) thoughtful
c) uninvolved
d) a show-off
25.
a) task-oriented
b) sincere
c) diplomatic
d) lively
26.
a) tactless
b) hard to please
c) lazy
d) loud
27.
a) direct
b) creative
c) adaptable
d) a performer
28.
a) calculating
b) self-rightous
c) self-deprecating
d) disorganized
29.
a) confident
b) disciplined
c) pleasant
d) charismatic
30.
a) intimidating
b) careful
c) unproductive
d) afraid to face facts
SITUATIONS
Now let's see if you respond the same way to the following situations as you did to groups of descriptive words.
31. If I applied for a job, a prospective employer would most likely hire me because I am:
a) Driven, direct, and delegating.
b) Deliberate, accurate, and reliable.
c) Patient, adaptable, and tactful.
d) Fun-loving, spirited, and casual.
32. When involved in an intimate relationship, if I feel threated by my partner, I:
a) Fight back with facts and anger.
b) Cry, feel hurt, and plan revenge.
c) Become quiet, withdrawn, and often hold anger until I blow up over some minor issue later.
d) Distance myself and avoid further conflict.
33. For me, life is most meaningful when it:
a) Is task-oriented and productive.
b) Is filled with people and purpose.
c) Is free of pressure and stress.
d) Allows me to be playful, lighthearted, and optimistic.
34. As a child, I was:
a) Stubborn, bright, and/or aggressive.
b) Well-behaved, caring, and/or depressed.
c) Quiet, easygoing, and/or shy.
d) Too Talkative, happy, and/or playful.
35. As an adult, I am:
a) Opionated, determined, and/or bossy.
b) Responsible, honest, and/or unforgiving.
c) Accepting, contented, and/or unmotivated.
d) Charismatic, positive, and/or obnoxious.
36. As a parent, I am:
a) Demanding, quick-tempered, and/or uncompromising.
b) Concerned, sensitive, and/or critical.
c) Permissive, easily persuaded, and/or often overwhelmed.
d) Playful, casual, and/or irresponsible.
37. In an argument with a friend, I am most likely to be:
a) Verbally stubborn about facts.
b) Concerned about others' feelings and principles.
c) Silently stubborn, uncomfortable, and/or confused.
d) Loud, uncomfortable, and/or compromising.
38. If my friend was in trouble, I would be:
a) Protective, resourceful, and recommend solutions.
b) Concerned, empathetic, and loyal-regardless of the problem.
c) Supportive, patient, and a good listener.
d) Nonjudgemental, optimistic, and downplaying the seriousness of the situation.
39. When making decisions, I am:
a) Assertive, articulate, and logical.
b) Deliberate, precise, and cautious.
c) Indecisive, timid, and reluctant.
d) Impulsive, uncommitted, and inconsistent.
40. When I fail, I feel:
a) Silently self-critical, yet verbally stubborn and defensive.
b) Guilty, self-critical, and vulnerable to depression-I dwell on it.
c) Unsettled and fearful, but I keep it to myself.
d) Embarrassed and nervous-seeking to escape the situation.
41. If someone crosses me:
a) I am angered, and cunningly plan ways to get even quickly.
b) I feel deeply hurt and find it almost impossible to forgive completely. Generally, getting even is not enough.
c) I am silently hurt and plan to get even and/or completely avoid the other person.
d) I want to avoid confontation, consider the situation not important enough to bother with, and/or seek other friends.
42. Work is:
a) A most productive way to spend one's time.
b) A healthy activity, which should be done right if it's to be done at all. Work should be done before one plays.
c) A positive activity as long as it is something I enjoy and don't feel pressured to accomplish.
d) A necessary evil, much less inviting than play.
43. In social situations, I am most often:
a) Feared by others.
b) Admired by others.
c) Protected by others.
d) Envied by others.
44. In a relationship, I am most concerned with being:
a) Approved of and right.
b) Understood, appreciated, and intimate.
c) Respected, tolerant, and peaceful.
d) Praised, having fun, and feeling free.
45. To feel alive and positive, I seek:
a) Adventure, leadership, and lots of action.
b) Security, creativity, and purpose.
c) Acceptance and safety.
d) Excitement, playful productivity, and the company of others.
19. For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.
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This scripture is so important in its descriptiveness about the attributes a person must have to be a true son or daughter of God. It is a great struggle to maintain these attributes in a world like ours.
I wish it were easy sometimes.
40. And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.
Directions: Select the word or phrase that best describes what you are like most of the time. Be honest!
1.
a) opinionated
b) nurturing
c) inventive
d) outgoing
2.
a) power-oriented
b) perfectionist
c) indecisive
d) self-centered
3.
a) dominant
b) sympathetic
c) tolerant
d) enthusiastic
4.
a) self-serving
b) suspicious
c) unsure
d) naive
5.
a) decisive
b) loyal
c) contented
d) playful
6.
a) arrogant
b) worry prone
c) silently stubborn
d) flighty
7.
a) assertive
b) reliable
c) kind
d) sociable
8.
a) bossy
b) self-critical
c) reluctant
d) a teaser
9.
a) action-oriented
b) analytical
c) easygoing
d) carefree
10.
a) critical of others
b) overly sensitive
c) shy
d) obnoxious
11.
a) determined
b) detail conscious
c) a good listner
d) a party person
12.
a) demanding
b) unforgiving
c) unmotivated
d) vain
13.
a) responsible
b) idealistic
c) considerate
d) happy
14.
a) impatient
b) moody
c) passive
d) impulsive
15.
a) strong-willed
b) respectful
c) patient
d) fun-loving
16.
a) argumentative
b) unrealistic
c) directionless
d) an interrupter
17.
a) independent
b) dependable
c) even-tempered
d) trusting
18.
a) aggressive
b) frequently depressed
c) ambivalent
d) forgetful
19.
a) powerful
b) deliberate
c) gentle
d) optimistic
20.
a) insensitive
b) judgemental
c) boring
d) undisciplined
21.
a) logical
b) emotional
c) agreeable
d) popular
22.
a) always right
b) guilt prone
c) unenthusiastic
d) uncommitted
23.
a) pragmatic
b) well-behaved
c) accepting
d) spontaneous
24.
a) merciless
b) thoughtful
c) uninvolved
d) a show-off
25.
a) task-oriented
b) sincere
c) diplomatic
d) lively
26.
a) tactless
b) hard to please
c) lazy
d) loud
27.
a) direct
b) creative
c) adaptable
d) a performer
28.
a) calculating
b) self-rightous
c) self-deprecating
d) disorganized
29.
a) confident
b) disciplined
c) pleasant
d) charismatic
30.
a) intimidating
b) careful
c) unproductive
d) afraid to face facts
SITUATIONS
Now let's see if you respond the same way to the following situations as you did to groups of descriptive words.
31. If I applied for a job, a prospective employer would most likely hire me because I am:
a) Driven, direct, and delegating.
b) Deliberate, accurate, and reliable.
c) Patient, adaptable, and tactful.
d) Fun-loving, spirited, and casual.
32. When involved in an intimate relationship, if I feel threated by my partner, I:
a) Fight back with facts and anger.
b) Cry, feel hurt, and plan revenge.
c) Become quiet, withdrawn, and often hold anger until I blow up over some minor issue later.
d) Distance myself and avoid further conflict.
33. For me, life is most meaningful when it:
a) Is task-oriented and productive.
b) Is filled with people and purpose.
c) Is free of pressure and stress.
d) Allows me to be playful, lighthearted, and optimistic.
34. As a child, I was:
a) Stubborn, bright, and/or aggressive.
b) Well-behaved, caring, and/or depressed.
c) Quiet, easygoing, and/or shy.
d) Too Talkative, happy, and/or playful.
35. As an adult, I am:
a) Opionated, determined, and/or bossy.
b) Responsible, honest, and/or unforgiving.
c) Accepting, contented, and/or unmotivated.
d) Charismatic, positive, and/or obnoxious.
36. As a parent, I am:
a) Demanding, quick-tempered, and/or uncompromising.
b) Concerned, sensitive, and/or critical.
c) Permissive, easily persuaded, and/or often overwhelmed.
d) Playful, casual, and/or irresponsible.
37. In an argument with a friend, I am most likely to be:
a) Verbally stubborn about facts.
b) Concerned about others' feelings and principles.
c) Silently stubborn, uncomfortable, and/or confused.
d) Loud, uncomfortable, and/or compromising.
38. If my friend was in trouble, I would be:
a) Protective, resourceful, and recommend solutions.
b) Concerned, empathetic, and loyal-regardless of the problem.
c) Supportive, patient, and a good listener.
d) Nonjudgemental, optimistic, and downplaying the seriousness of the situation.
39. When making decisions, I am:
a) Assertive, articulate, and logical.
b) Deliberate, precise, and cautious.
c) Indecisive, timid, and reluctant.
d) Impulsive, uncommitted, and inconsistent.
40. When I fail, I feel:
a) Silently self-critical, yet verbally stubborn and defensive.
b) Guilty, self-critical, and vulnerable to depression-I dwell on it.
c) Unsettled and fearful, but I keep it to myself.
d) Embarrassed and nervous-seeking to escape the situation.
41. If someone crosses me:
a) I am angered, and cunningly plan ways to get even quickly.
b) I feel deeply hurt and find it almost impossible to forgive completely. Generally, getting even is not enough.
c) I am silently hurt and plan to get even and/or completely avoid the other person.
d) I want to avoid confontation, consider the situation not important enough to bother with, and/or seek other friends.
42. Work is:
a) A most productive way to spend one's time.
b) A healthy activity, which should be done right if it's to be done at all. Work should be done before one plays.
c) A positive activity as long as it is something I enjoy and don't feel pressured to accomplish.
d) A necessary evil, much less inviting than play.
43. In social situations, I am most often:
a) Feared by others.
b) Admired by others.
c) Protected by others.
d) Envied by others.
44. In a relationship, I am most concerned with being:
a) Approved of and right.
b) Understood, appreciated, and intimate.
c) Respected, tolerant, and peaceful.
d) Praised, having fun, and feeling free.
45. To feel alive and positive, I seek:
a) Adventure, leadership, and lots of action.
b) Security, creativity, and purpose.
c) Acceptance and safety.
d) Excitement, playful productivity, and the company of others.
1 Corinthians 15:20-22
20. But now is Christ risen from the dead, and become the firstfruits of them that slept.21. For since by man came death, by man came also the resurrection of the dead.
22. For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.
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If we are made alive again, will we be grateful for being made alive and happy to be alive?
22. For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ shall all be made alive.
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If we are made alive again, will we be grateful for being made alive and happy to be alive?
5. Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the LORD:6. And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.
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I think about this scripture a lot as pertaining to my family.
Some people have told me it is not to be taken literally.
I am not so sure. I have always thought that parents and
their children should love each other, and hoped that my children
and their father would love each other in the sense
that they would take good care of each other, be kind to each other
and care about each others' feelings.
I think a major part of the problems in our world
are caused by self centered parents and children,
lack of compassion and kindness, lack of responsibility.
I think those problems are caused by lack of caring
of people toward one another.
The divorce has been a nightmarish thing.
So was the marriage. So were the dating years.
I can't honestly look anyone in the face and
recommend these activities to them.
I would feel as though I were recommending
pain and sorrow to them.
I have hopes, but no expectations.
I want to heal broken families, especially mine
but I don't believe remarriage would solve anything.
I think if I look for someone and find them
I will be showing the very example I want to avoid,
passing on the idea that people are replaceable
and contributing to the problem of not taking
personal relationships seriously.
I don't want to leave behind a bunch of people
with the attitude Cain had toward his brother Abel
when I die. I think that is a big problem in the world.
I can see it rising up in my family.
I think it causes divorce.
I think it is wrong to trivialize another human being.
I can't say I have never done it
but I never feel okay about it.
I think Malachi was partly talking about the practice of
seeing each other through critical eyes
and passing judgment, especially on family members.
It is an unloving way to be.
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I think about this scripture a lot as pertaining to my family.
Some people have told me it is not to be taken literally.
I am not so sure. I have always thought that parents and
their children should love each other, and hoped that my children
and their father would love each other in the sense
that they would take good care of each other, be kind to each other
and care about each others' feelings.
I think a major part of the problems in our world
are caused by self centered parents and children,
lack of compassion and kindness, lack of responsibility.
I think those problems are caused by lack of caring
of people toward one another.
The divorce has been a nightmarish thing.
So was the marriage. So were the dating years.
I can't honestly look anyone in the face and
recommend these activities to them.
I would feel as though I were recommending
pain and sorrow to them.
I have hopes, but no expectations.
I want to heal broken families, especially mine
but I don't believe remarriage would solve anything.
I think if I look for someone and find them
I will be showing the very example I want to avoid,
passing on the idea that people are replaceable
and contributing to the problem of not taking
personal relationships seriously.
I don't want to leave behind a bunch of people
with the attitude Cain had toward his brother Abel
when I die. I think that is a big problem in the world.
I can see it rising up in my family.
I think it causes divorce.
I think it is wrong to trivialize another human being.
I can't say I have never done it
but I never feel okay about it.
I think Malachi was partly talking about the practice of
seeing each other through critical eyes
and passing judgment, especially on family members.
It is an unloving way to be.
30. But this much I can tell you, that if ye do not watch yourselves, and your thoughts, and your words, and your deeds, and observe the commandments of God, and continue in the faith of what ye have heard concerning the coming of our Lord, even unto the end of your lives, ye must perish. And now, O man, remember, and perish not.
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I can attest to the truth in this scripture.
It is so hard to keep negatives where
they will not harm anyone.
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I can attest to the truth in this scripture.
It is so hard to keep negatives where
they will not harm anyone.
3. For of him unto whom much is given much is required;
and he who sins against the greater light shall receive
the greater condemnation. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I have been given much, more than I think I should have.
I am so grateful for what I have been given,
but I am unable to express my gratitude in
an acceptable form.
and he who sins against the greater light shall receive
the greater condemnation. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I have been given much, more than I think I should have.
I am so grateful for what I have been given,
but I am unable to express my gratitude in
an acceptable form.
12. And now, my sons, remember, remember
that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer,
who is Christ, the Son of God,
that ye must build your foundation;
that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds,
yea, his shafts in the whirlwind,
yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you,
it shall have no power over you to drag you down
to the gulf of misery and endless wo,
because of the rock upon which ye are built,
which is a sure foundation,
a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall. --------------------------------------------------------------
Faith can only be found in a place or person who is eternal.
I believe in Jesus as an eternal being, the true son of the living God.
that it is upon the rock of our Redeemer,
who is Christ, the Son of God,
that ye must build your foundation;
that when the devil shall send forth his mighty winds,
yea, his shafts in the whirlwind,
yea, when all his hail and his mighty storm shall beat upon you,
it shall have no power over you to drag you down
to the gulf of misery and endless wo,
because of the rock upon which ye are built,
which is a sure foundation,
a foundation whereon if men build they cannot fall. --------------------------------------------------------------
Faith can only be found in a place or person who is eternal.
I believe in Jesus as an eternal being, the true son of the living God.
19. For the natural man is an enemy to God, and has been from the fall of Adam, and will be, forever and ever, unless he yields to the enticings of the Holy Spirit, and putteth off the natural man and becometh a saint through the atonement of Christ the Lord, and becometh as a child, submissive, meek, humble, patient, full of love, willing to submit to all things which the Lord seeth fit to inflict upon him, even as a child doth submit to his father.
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This scripture is so important in its descriptiveness about the attributes a person must have to be a true son or daughter of God. It is a great struggle to maintain these attributes in a world like ours.
I wish it were easy sometimes.
40. And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.
Doctrine and Covenants 88:123-124
Facebook observations
Facebook is set up as a giant courtroom, with family, friends and public as judges and jury, and unseen judges and jury with access to personal and/or privileged information. It is a marketing tool, it is a discovery tool, a recovery tool, or a tearing down tool. It can be used for missionary work, or accusations, as a social connector, or a social disconnector. It has great potential as a teaching tool, a documenting tool, a method of establishing credibility or proving flaws. As a teaching tool it can be used for both good and evil.
2 Nephi 2:27
27. Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh;
and all things are given them which are expedient unto man.
And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life,
through the great Mediator of all men,
or to choose captivity and death,
according to the captivity and power of the devil;
for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
and all things are given them which are expedient unto man.
And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life,
through the great Mediator of all men,
or to choose captivity and death,
according to the captivity and power of the devil;
for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Doctrine and Covenants 10:5
5. Pray always, that you may come off conqueror;
yea, that you may conquer Satan,
and that you may escape the hands of
the servants of Satan that do uphold his work. -----------------------------------------------------------
yea, that you may conquer Satan,
and that you may escape the hands of
the servants of Satan that do uphold his work. -----------------------------------------------------------
3. For of him unto whom much is given much is required;
and he who sins against the greater light shall receive
the greater condemnation.
and he who sins against the greater light shall receive
the greater condemnation.
10. I, the Lord, am bound when ye do what I say;
but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise.
but when ye do not what I say, ye have no promise.
15. The word of the LORD came again unto me, saying, 16. Moreover, thou son of man, take thee one stick, and write upon it, For Judah, and for the children of Israel his companions: then take another stick, and write upon it, For Joseph, the stick of Ephraim, and for all the house of Israel his companions:
17. And join them one to another into one stick; and they shall become one in thine hand.
17. And join them one to another into one stick; and they shall become one in thine hand.
2 Nephi 9:28-29
28. O that cunning plan of the evil one! O the vainness, and the frailties, and the foolishness of men! When they are learned they think they are wise, and they hearken not unto the counsel of God, for they set it aside, supposing they know of themselves, wherefore, their wisdom is foolishness and it profiteth them not. And they shall perish.
29. But to be learned is good if they hearken unto the counsels of God.
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I have never thought of myself as being very good academically.
I do understand that whatever I know
belongs to God and must be used in His behalf
3. Thou shalt have no other gods before me. 4. Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth:
5. Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me;
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Image worship is a great curse these days.
5. Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me;
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Image worship is a great curse these days.
26. For behold, it is not meet that I should command in all things; for he that is compelled in all things, the same is a slothful and not a wise servant; wherefore he receiveth no reward. 27. Verily I say, men should be anxiously engaged in a good cause, and do many things of their own free will, and bring to pass much righteousness;
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I have the anxious part down pretty much, but am I as actively involved in a good cause as I should be?
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I have the anxious part down pretty much, but am I as actively involved in a good cause as I should be?
24. No man can serve two masters:
for either he will hate the one, and love the other;
or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other.
Ye cannot serve God and mammon.
-------------------------------------------------I can't. Too many masters is not good.
I am not a genie...
for either he will hate the one, and love the other;
or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other.
Ye cannot serve God and mammon.
-------------------------------------------------I can't. Too many masters is not good.
I am not a genie...
6. Now ye may suppose that this is foolishness in me; but behold I say unto you, that by small and simple things are great things brought to pass; and small means in many instances doth confound the wise. 7. And the Lord God doth work by means to bring about his great and eternal purposes; and by very small means the Lord doth confound the wise and bringeth about the salvation of many souls.
39. For behold, this is my work and my glory--
to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man.
to bring to pass the immortality and eternal life of man.
32. For behold, this life is the time for men to prepare to meet God; yea, behold the day of this life is the day for men to perform their labors.33. And now, as I said unto you before, as ye have had so many witnesses, therefore, I beseech of you that ye do not procrastinate the day of your repentance until the end; for after this day of life, which is given us to prepare for eternity, behold, if we do not improve our time while in this life, then cometh the night of darkness wherein there can be no labor performed.
18. And the Lord called his people ZION,
because they were of one heart and one mind,
and dwelt in righteousness;
and there was no poor among them.
because they were of one heart and one mind,
and dwelt in righteousness;
and there was no poor among them.
3. He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.4. Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
5. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
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I think about this, how Jesus was considered socially unacceptable
and His own people were ashamed of Him.
He has had everything that could be done to a person happen to Him,
and He understands.
I can't equal Him, I can't measure up to Him.
I wish I could have some measure of Him
His goodness and mercy mirrored in myself.
5. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.
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I think about this, how Jesus was considered socially unacceptable
and His own people were ashamed of Him.
He has had everything that could be done to a person happen to Him,
and He understands.
I can't equal Him, I can't measure up to Him.
I wish I could have some measure of Him
His goodness and mercy mirrored in myself.
26. For behold, it is not meet that I should command in all things; for he that is compelled in all things, the same is a slothful and not a wise servant; wherefore he receiveth no reward. 27. Verily I say, men should be anxiously engaged in a good cause, and do many things of their own free will, and bring to pass much righteousness;
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Anxiously engaged in a good cause,
It is what I want, but how do I do it
without running over and offending people?
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Anxiously engaged in a good cause,
It is what I want, but how do I do it
without running over and offending people?
3. Neither shalt thou make marriages with them;
thy daughter thou shalt not give unto his son,
nor his daughter shalt thou take unto thy son. 4. For they will turn away thy son from following me,
that they may serve other gods:
so will the anger of the LORD be kindled against you,
and destroy thee suddenly.
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I think about this in relation to my divorce.
It isn't good to be married to despair.
If you have strong beliefs,
and you want to live them
it is better to marry someone
who has similar beliefs and wants
to live them.
thy daughter thou shalt not give unto his son,
nor his daughter shalt thou take unto thy son. 4. For they will turn away thy son from following me,
that they may serve other gods:
so will the anger of the LORD be kindled against you,
and destroy thee suddenly.
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I think about this in relation to my divorce.
It isn't good to be married to despair.
If you have strong beliefs,
and you want to live them
it is better to marry someone
who has similar beliefs and wants
to live them.
1. THIS know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. 2. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,
3. Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
4. Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
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This is the sad condition of our present population.
May God have mercy on our souls, because the devil won't for sure.
Who is there alive today who is not drowning in the mass
self indulgence that is going on?
3. Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
4. Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
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This is the sad condition of our present population.
May God have mercy on our souls, because the devil won't for sure.
Who is there alive today who is not drowning in the mass
self indulgence that is going on?
Doctrine and Covenants 14:7
7. And, if you keep my commandments
and endure to the end you shall have eternal life,
which gift is the greatest of all the gifts of God.
and endure to the end you shall have eternal life,
which gift is the greatest of all the gifts of God.
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Some people are so good at appearing to endure to the end.
I'm not one of them though
Malachi 4:5-6
5. Behold, I will send you Elijah the prophet before the coming of the great and dreadful day of the LORD:6. And he shall turn the heart of the fathers to the children, and the heart of the children to their fathers, lest I come and smite the earth with a curse.
Joshua 1:8
8. This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth;
but thou shalt meditate therein day and night,
that thou mayest observe to do according to
all that is written therein:
for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous,
and then thou shalt have good success.
but thou shalt meditate therein day and night,
that thou mayest observe to do according to
all that is written therein:
for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous,
and then thou shalt have good success.
Moses 7:18
18. And the Lord called his people ZION,
because they were of one heart and one mind,
and dwelt in righteousness;
and there was no poor among them. ---------------------------------------------------
How would it be to have a world with no poor
and equal opportunities for all?
I don't think I'll ever see it in my lifetime.
because they were of one heart and one mind,
and dwelt in righteousness;
and there was no poor among them. ---------------------------------------------------
How would it be to have a world with no poor
and equal opportunities for all?
I don't think I'll ever see it in my lifetime.
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