I will move away sometime.  I won't tell you when I go, because I know you won't miss me.  You never did before and there is no reason to believe you ever will.  I am the one with the pangs of longing after all and I don't wish to impose them on you.  Free will is so important in any relationship of any kind and especially when one is feeling more attraction than the other.I have become not only committed to my feelings but resigned to them.  They are not escapable.

And, I always accept that I am unacceptable to you.  That was always understood.

Some days I long so much to know how you are doing and where you are.  I never knew where my family was though.  I have learned to accept they are not committed to me and don't care how I feel about them and I have come to believe my feelngs have no value to them.  They probably feel the same about me.

Like you, I believe they will not miss me when i am gone.