post mortem

 

 

post mortem = after death

After we die where will we go?
After we die what becomes of our essence
and our remains?
I have always had answers that have relieved
some of the worries but not all.
It is always a worry that I am not
adequately prepared for death
because I know it could come at any time.

 

I never feel as though I can live my life
to the fullest because I am not really prepared to die.
What will my children do if I am gone?
Who will love them?

 

I have come close to dying several times.
I am not afraid of death as much as

I am worried about leaving a mess behind me

for someone else to clean up.

I would like to leave behind a few burdens as possible

for others.

I know that some of my goals and desires
will never be reached, but I believe God
will support me in reaching the goals that are right.

I want to leave the world a better place when I die.
I want to be someone's blessing, not their burden.
I want my children to be respectful, respectable and responsible.
I want to be good and spread goodness in the world.
I want to be someone who will not destroy others, or destroy myself,
or let others destroy me.

I think one of the worst things is living as someone's disappointment,
but  know that people who are disappointed in me want me to live up to
expectations and goals that may or may not be realistic or within my ability
to achieve.

I know there will always be someone somewhere who will be
disappointed in me.  People can't always be pleased.
I hope I can be someone who does not behave in a disappointed way
toward others.  I have before, and it was greatly detrimental to them.

When I die, I hope I have filled the purpose for which God created me.
If I can have that as my meaning in life, then the rest won't matter.
I can say that it was all worth having and doing.
May God fill me with His mercy, His light and His love.
May God help my children to be good people who will build up His
kingdom on earth and never tear it down.