Little angel blue eyes

Little angel blue eyes
looking up at me
Little angel blue eyes
what is it that you see?

Do you see a grownup
or another child
someone stern and grim or
someone sweet and mild?

Will you still love me
when you are grown
old enough to go away
and live out on your own

Little angel blue eyes
as long as I live and breathe
I will hold and love you
and try to fill your needs

Lifelong love

Once this poster hung on the wall of two newlyweds, us, he and I. I hoped very much we could work on our feelings and turn them into strong permanent bonds to nourish and strengthen each other and our family.

If you are my lifelong love

I want to be with you
If I am who you love
you want to be with me too

So we won't go places
we know we shouldn't be
where we can't reach each other
or take our family.

Because if you really love
you commit entirely
If I love you
I'll completely commit me

and we will be as one
traveling in the same direction
toward the same destination
without reservation

Love that grows from you and me
will be a wondrous family.
People who love
and serve God above

We will find pleasure
in being together
sharing together
learning together

family forever.

Sister moonlight

Smile sister moonlight, let your midnight hair
sweep soft o'er the babe in your arms.
Soothe away tears, infantile nightmares,
cradle him, comfort him, keep him from harm.

Lullabye lady alone through dark hours
awaiting your eternal lover
who greets you at dawn as you cradle his son
inspiring you like no other.
Sometimes you're lonely, but lady don't fear.
Someone who loves you will always be near
even if only in spirit.

Smile sweet sister, shine on forever,
shadows eclipse not your light.
Your loved ones and you shall be happy together.
sun shall dispel the dark night
and time's end shall mark new beginnings
and future shall ever beam bright..

If I could

If I could stand outside myself and turn and look at me

and see myself through others eyes, I wonder what I'd see?

If I could look beyond myself and see another's pain,

would I reach out my hand to them or turn and walk away?

If I could be more than I am that's what I want to be.

I'd be more loving, and good, and kind

more giving, more open of heart and mind

and look toward the future instead of behind.

If I could see more than i do, that's what I'd want to see.

I would see how to care for others' needs

see my mistakes in words and deeds,

know when to follow and when to lead.

If I could know more than I do, that's what I'd want to know.

I'd know for sure what I do is right

know how to answer my questions inside,

and always pursue eternity's light.

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Math textbook. I'm still using it.

Night life

When shadows of night fall, hiding the day
shy creatures wake from sweet slumber to play.

Where colorful butterflies race in sunlight,
soft silver moths make their way in the night.

As sparrows and meadowlarks sing their last notes
crickets and frogs begin clearing their throats.

Little breezes ruffle fur of nocturnal beasts
blinking owls with shining eyes keep watch in the trees.

Hunters stalk their wary prey through the night hours
fireflies light the way for hungry night prowlers.

When the sun's bright fingers appear overhead
sleepy night creatures curl up in their beds

and slumber till warm daylight hours wane
then rise again to play their games..

For Aaron

Little brother when I held you and I bounced you in my arms
and saw you smile, heard you laugh, I felt happy and warm.

One of the best things in my life was learning to know you
from the first day of your life, and then all the way through

Little brother I can't say that I've led a perfect life
I can't say our relationship was free of pain and strife

And I'm so sorry for times I betrayed your trust in me
And never really told you just what you meant to me.

So now my brother you are grown and you have moved away
And when we meet face to face we don't know what to say

But I regret the past and I hope you'll forgive me
For my lack of understanding and insensitivity.

Keepers of light

You are keepers of light,
Reflecting glory in the dark fearsome night
Precious and sacred friends
Bridging a chasm of unknown depth without end.

I would not take your glory from you
or block you from my view
Your shine is soft and gentle
And comforts like a mantle

If I could I would return the good you’ve given me
Supporting me when I am weak and afraid
So much is beyond what I’m able to do
But the future is still unmade…

How I hope you will always be there
Shining light for everyone
Reflecting Heaven’s glory
Like the moon reflects the Sun.

Mystery

Somewhere there is something
always sought for but unreached
visible as wind, audible as silence
tangible as thought...

Existing in tradition,
divined by intuition
uncapturable, but always there
Powerful, peaceful.

Mystery unanswered, yet
answered continuously.
Question self contained in the answer.
Always unseen.

Battles

The greatest battle we fight in this life
is the fight against negatives.
Negativity can take over your life if you let it.
Don't lose the fight.
If you have to, cut yourself off
from everyone and everything that
feeds you those negatives.
Don't let it in. Don't let it win.
It is better to die in the light
than to live in the darkness.

Worth

There are some things worth giving up everything for.

There are some things not worth having.
Those things that are not worth having
will often seek you out and reach for you
to tear you down.

Be careful. Your soul is worth more
than you know.

The things you want most
are the most difficult to reach.
Sometimes it will seem to you as though
you cannot reach them at all.

There is only one who will love you
and hold you through all of it.
That one is God.
When all others have abandoned you
He is there for you.

When destroyers reach for you to pollute
and trap you, they are seen by the great Creator.
They cannot hide and they are designing their own destruction.
There are no places in His kingdom for those
who will tear down others.

May all people be shielded from the thoughts of
those who most wish to destroy them.

Description of a feeling

Mind to mind, heart to heart,spirit to spirit.
Not invasive, but sharing.

Warm, sweet, peaceful and tender
adds to the quality of life
rather than being disruptive and painful.

Smooth, quiet, relaxing.

Undemanding, accepting,receptive,
respectful, understanding, humorous,
sometimes romantic.

Non-competitive, but motivated in other ways.
Violence and despair have no part in this.

Unhurried, limitless, eternal.
Calm, serene, ever changing
but always essentially familiar.

Surrounds and envelops without constricting,
secure, but never boring.

This cannot be bought, sold or stolen,
bottled, caged or broken.

It can't be forced but it can be killed,
for love is a living thing.

Disabilities

Disabilities are part of life.
It is normal to have at least one.
Some disabilities aren't visible from the outside.
Disabilities don't make people worthless.
They do make a person feel worthless.
No one really wants to feel worthless.
No one wants to be worthless.
Build people up.
Help them to feeltheir worth.
Give them a place to live and grow.
The world is for everyone
not just those who have and who can.
All life is precious.
Don't waste life.

Bad Things Can Happen to Anyone

Bad things can happen to anyone
no matter who they are
like being struck by lightning
or crashing in a car

It isn't who you are
or anything you've done
Bad things in life just happen
to all and everyone.

Sometimes you meet those challenges
you wish never to face
You find yourself confronted
by a nightmare someplace

Living through it is the last thing
that you would want to do
It's a fate worse than death
and it's happening to you.

When you meet that nightmare,
no matter where or when.
That is your proving moment,
your key to understand.

It shows you what you're made of
where you are weak or strong.
It tells you where you're headed
and shows where you belong.

Bad things happen to anyone,
no matter who they are.
There's no safe place to hide
predict, prevent, or bar.

The only thing that you can do
is pray and prepare
And hold on tight to God
when you face your nightmares.

The Soul

 

Once he gave me a T-shirt with this painting printed across the front.At the time, we still hoped our joint life together would work out somehow.  As the dissolution of our life and feelings progressed over time, the photo in the T-shirt also cracked and dissolved from repeated washings.  Sometimes I wonder if it was even possible to make our marriage work.  Was it history, or circumstances, or just weak spirits?  Maybe spiritual strength was the necessary ingredient missing from us.

Once there was a girl
who dreamed of being free.
She didn't want to stay home
and raise a family

But she met a man
who used her for fun
and now she has a family
she's raising all alone.

Once there was a boy
who valued human souls
He tried to help his friends
reassess their goals

They pursued their own ideas
of fun and recreation
casually broke the laws
and wrecked his reputation.

In the end freedom isn't
doing what you want to do
It's what is best for everyone
not just what's fun for you.

It's nice when you can leave
all your cares behind
but when pursuing dreams
keep the soul's best use in mind.

Legacy

Do you ever wonder in the wanderings of your mind
where you fit in history and what you'll leave behind?
Do you search for meaning, for a reason to be?
Do you try each day to build a worthwhile legacy?

So many people aimlessly hope for things to do
There are multiple distractions, many roads to choose.
Looking for a purpose, lonely for a friend.
Hoping somehow it will all turn out right in the end...

Make every day worth living, look farther down your road,
Form a picture in your mind of the place you want to go
Plan, hope, and pray, reach for spirit goals
and recognize the worth in every living soul.

Life work

I am alive because God made me so
and preserves me and keeps me from harm
My life's not my own and never was.
I drift like a leaf in a storm.
Where the wind takes me is where I must go
unknowing of time or direction
and praying and hoping for mercy from God
and coveting His protection.

Seasons pass, children grow,
My life's work, the seeds I sow
seeking better things to know
planning for tomorrow...

And bitter tears and yesterdays
time will somehow soothe away
and make my aging years taste sweet
make my life a work complete.

White

White is the blessed light of sun
giving warmth to everyone.
White is smooth and shining spheres
of jewels born of oyster tears.

White is a pillow softer than soft
that bears my fondest dreams aloft.
White is the crown that I will wear
when age and experience color my hair.

White is the moon and glimmering stars,
the curling strands of morning mist
the wings of a swan in flight
the curled up fingers of a baby's fist.

White is a rose spangled with dew
a tiny cloud in a sky of blue
the sweetest fruit of the tree of life
and our dear Lord who stands for truth and right.

Dad

I will always love my father
not for all the things he's done
but because he's tried so hard
to make life better for everyone

Many times he's tried and failed
and fallen so far down
it seemed as if he'd never
get back up from off the ground

But he keeps on and he tries
and he dreams of something more.
better than anything
he's ever been before.

And he tries not to mind
the trouble left behind
and he tries not to make
his decisions blind...

But he makes his choices
based on his love.
And that is my father
and what he's made of...

Joseph

Joseph, you never grew old.
You passed from this life in your glorious prime
a martyr to the work of your life,
a landmark in the wilderness of time...

Your life's work the reason
for your existence
and still your enemies
renew their resistance...

But with God's love the treasure to win,
His world, His way, will be the best end
and your efforts were not in vain.
And Joseph, you'll live again.

Heidi

When you were born your smile was the light
that brought the love of Heaven to your parents lives
And angels were your friends
they flowed from your pen
and warmed the changing seasons of your life.

Smile Heidi, smile and smile again
You've made the world a sweeter place for your family and friends.
Know that you are loved
here on earth and up above.
And may the Lord his greatest blessings send.

In the evening skies the stars join their shimmering light
to fend off the darkness of approaching night
and you shine like the brightest star
the spiritual being that you are
has given those around you better sight.

Live Heidi, live to see your children grow.
They will become great men and women I know
for having such a giving
and tender mother living
to teach them how to make good tomorrows.

And the Lord smiles on high
when he sees how you try
Your life is worth the while
Shine Heidi, live Heidi, and smile.

Fireflies

Our youngest glow brightest,that is why
People are like fireflies.

Youth's vigor is wasted on foolish forays,
and brilliant but vain displays.

Our fragile light lasts so little time
before life is over and undermined.

I wish to be a wise firefly
use my light to help those behind

If I share what light is mine
help others to see,light may come to me

and a better world I'll find.

My List

I want my hands to be useful hands
not hanging by my sides.

I want my actions driven by compassion
not vanity and pride

I want to be ready to die,
for death could come at any time.

Preparing for death brings
freedom, and peace of mind

What I want most in life is meaning
reason for existence

To do something worthwhile
I want life to make sense

And death to be as gentle as
the cooing of a dove

And leave behind an everlasting
legacy of love.